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Rant.

Today was a weird start. I woke up for work in a not so wonderful confuzed mood. Work was fine. Get home and try to put on spare tire for Tue car to get checked out. This is my gfs car....and I hate the god damn thing. It would a been fine had the air lug gun things not screwed the lugs on so tight. I'd have ended up breaking the tire iron or hurt myself. I was asking about an air compressor to fix the flat for two days. "Oh its in my car". I go searching for the ******** thing and there was no compressor. ******** it. I canceled the appointment. Gf is pissed because I woke her up to tell her I was cancelling and she's also pissed because I didn't ask for help. I had been asking for the last few days... so now I sit on the sofa up since 3am and its too late for a nap. Yup, I'm in a very bad mood.

i had to wait for a few hours for her to calm down .___. gosh.. i dont know how much more i can take.

ik :/ This sums up how I feel and done.

that's the problem im facing now. i stood up for myself early this evening and now the gf is more than pissed at me .___. i was placed in an uncomfortable situation and made a clear indication that i was not alright with it. she wanted me to go to a club with a dude i very much dont like. so yea.. she figures that by not going she would be punishing me and making me feel guilty. i dont like bar hopping or clubbing at all. i grew up with alcoholics and id rather not be around them and gf doesnt understand this. she thinks im too scared to try new things or being too paranoid. v__v so in the video, im at a point where i know i should leave and be happy and at the same time i feel terrible for even thinking about leaving.

oh gosh no lol sex does not count at all. ive learned from my fam's mistakes that its never a good idea to mix anything like that into the equation. :/ perhaps that's why i love tangled so much other than that, at the time, i was having some major issues with my mother. crying oh gawd... all sappy now xD