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PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 7:27 pm




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PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 8:05 pm


So things have gotten really scary and exciting. Me and my boyfriend are moving to Colorado from Missouri. We just decided the town today and we're going to do it in 30 days. We're going to pack up, get there and put our stuff in storage. Then we are going to stay in hotels and camp while looking for jobs. Once we get jobs we should be able to get an apartment. We have spent most of the day looking things up. It's kinda crazy moving to a different state without people you are going to go stay with. But this is what we want. The place we are looking at moving has everything. 6 staffing companies to our 1. I think we will find jobs easily. What has made me so drastic? Well.. Missouri has always sucked. I moved away and never should have came back. But I foolishly did. We soon found how much drama was here. Our apartment was crap. The landlord big time slumlord. Neighbors trashy and always arguing. My mom lives downstairs and she recently decided to get off all her meds and be a crazy b***h anytime she wants. The whole time we have been here she has been fighting with someone. When the fight dulls down and they move on she moves on too.. to the next fight. First it was her friend Tabby. Then Trish. Then Mel. Then Steve and Nancy at the same time. Then Mike. Now me. Me and Pete told her we'd help with her garden. So she calls me at 730 am. I told her I was tired. I said, "You know I work nights, I can't work in the garden this early." She turned her phone off and left. I tried calling her about 5 mins after she called me.. I sent her texts practically begging her to let me help her because I knew she'd be mad. I apologized twice. I ended up doing all the work alone. She finally called. She screamed in my ear, "I'm ******** done!" I said "Done with what? I'm sorry I was grumpy and I fixed the tomato plants!" She just was screaming the whole time I was talking. Incoherent babbling. She told me to never call her ever again. She told me she was changing her number. Then she hung up. So I cried.. and blocked her on Facebook and changed my number. Because she doesn't know how to stop, even when she is the one saying to leave her alone. She's the kind of person who tells you she hates you, hangs up on you then calls right back. So I finally learned I can't let her do this to me anymore. I have to get far away from her. 26 years of abuse is enough. Us wanting to move turned into us needing to move. Well we've been looking for a place around here since October. It's July. Almost a whole year. There is nothing near here. We started considering going further.. but that means starting completely over. If we are going to start over... why not really start over? Whole new state? I am so done with the people around here. I am ready to toke legally and smell that fresh mountain air. What does this mean for Positive Energy? I'm going to be more scarce for the next 2+ months. This is a new guild, and we can't really afford that. So I hope it doesn't come crashing down... I don't believe it will though. Gaia is what I do for fun and I always need fun. We will be camping a lot to save money before we get an apt/house.. but we will also be in hotels with wifi and even some campsites. So I'll do what I can! This month is planning, selling and packing. Next month is jobs and a place to live!

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PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 8:14 pm


Spenelli
So things have gotten really scary and exciting. Me and my boyfriend are moving to Colorado from Missouri. We just decided the town today and we're going to do it in 30 days. We're going to pack up, get there and put our stuff in storage. Then we are going to stay in hotels and camp while looking for jobs. Once we get jobs we should be able to get an apartment. We have spent most of the day looking things up. It's kinda crazy moving to a different state without people you are going to go stay with. But this is what we want. The place we are looking at moving has everything. 6 staffing companies to our 1. I think we will find jobs easily. What has made me so drastic? Well.. Missouri has always sucked. I moved away and never should have came back. But I foolishly did. We soon found how much drama was here. Our apartment was crap. The landlord big time slumlord. Neighbors trashy and always arguing. My mom lives downstairs and she recently decided to get off all her meds and be a crazy b***h anytime she wants. The whole time we have been here she has been fighting with someone. When the fight dulls down and they move on she moves on too.. to the next fight. First it was her friend Tabby. Then Trish. Then Mel. Then Steve and Nancy at the same time. Then Mike. Now me. Me and Pete told her we'd help with her garden. So she calls me at 730 am. I told her I was tired. I said, "You know I work nights, I can't work in the garden this early." She turned her phone off and left. I tried calling her about 5 mins after she called me.. I sent her texts practically begging her to let me help her because I knew she'd be mad. I apologized twice. I ended up doing all the work alone. She finally called. She screamed in my ear, "I'm ******** done!" I said "Done with what? I'm sorry I was grumpy and I fixed the tomato plants!" She just was screaming the whole time I was talking. Incoherent babbling. She told me to never call her ever again. She told me she was changing her number. Then she hung up. So I cried.. and blocked her on Facebook and changed my number. Because she doesn't know how to stop, even when she is the one saying to leave her alone. She's the kind of person who tells you she hates you, hangs up on you then calls right back. So I finally learned I can't let her do this to me anymore. I have to get far away from her. 26 years of abuse is enough. Us wanting to move turned into us needing to move. Well we've been looking for a place around here since October. It's July. Almost a whole year. There is nothing near here. We started considering going further.. but that means starting completely over. If we are going to start over... why not really start over? Whole new state? I am so done with the people around here. I am ready to toke legally and smell that fresh mountain air. What does this mean for Positive Energy? I'm going to be more scarce for the next 2+ months. This is a new guild, and we can't really afford that. So I hope it doesn't come crashing down... I don't believe it will though. Gaia is what I do for fun and I always need fun. We will be camping a lot to save money before we get an apt/house.. but we will also be in hotels with wifi and even some campsites. So I'll do what I can! This month is planning, selling and packing. Next month is jobs and a place to live!


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So drastic!!
But, alas, I am jealous emotion_yatta It sounds like a great plan!!
The road you two will travel will have hills and valleys but as long as you're together,
it will be possible to move forward and create a better life.

Your mom sounds like
a toxic force in your life neutral
I'm sorry for your troubles

As long as the guild has
posts, we'll hold it together as best we can emotion_kirakira

Just make sure to be safe heart
PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 8:43 pm


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This is why we quit our jobs back in May. We used to work at a lumber mill. We both had a mid life crisis.. think we are gonna die in our 50's..or it was a quarter life crisis.. xD Anyhow we decided we would go live in his aunts house or go to Colorado. The thing with his aunt was crushed after we had already quit. Turns out the house wasn't just run down anymore, it was completely unlivable. So we moved on to the Colorado plan.. I tried finding apartments. Only they all wanted me to have a job already. But how do you have a job in a state you aren't in? I'm not highly skilled so I can't get people to hire me over the phone. We got frustrated and gave up. I got a new job that sucks.. and after 2 months he still can't find one. I'm making crap pay.. I have $64 left over after bills. His mom sends $400 so we come out okay. But she sent a letter this month.. no more money. She thinks we are fine now, and I don't have the heart/balls to ask for her to keep sending it. xD If we stay, we're screwed. Our savings will drain over time with nowhere better to work and no job for Pete. We have to go there and see people face to face for what we want. So we're doing it! TAKE IT! Haha. My mom is soo toxic. She is just an angry person, always has been. She throws fits when she doesn't get her way, she manipulates and uses people.. ugh she's done me wrong so many times. I messed around with this guy about 2 years ago. I was 23 or 24. He was 17 or 18. Legal but he was young for me. I ended up breaking things off. Well my mom, who is 21 years older than me started screwing him. Only instated of coming to me and talking about it, she hid it for months. She had hickeys and wouldn't say where they came from. Finally HE admitted it. I flipped on her for lying. I was grossed out too.. he was so young for her! And ew, I mean.. he had sex with me. It's just gross! So what did she do? Got mad at me. Said I had no right to say they couldn't be together. Fight after fight she put words in my mouth. I thought things but all I ever told her was I was mad she lied. And truth is that's all I was mad about. But she made it out like I wanted him. I was engaged. I had left him. But none of that mattered to her. It had to be my fault. She plastered on Facebook how I wanted her man and didn't love my fiance. She even got in arguments with my friends. I still forgave her for all that. Don't know why.

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PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 8:48 pm


hey, i wish you the best of luck with your move! i hope it takes you closer to the life you and your boyfriend dream of (:
take care heart
PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 8:59 pm


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This is why we quit our jobs back in May. We used to work at a lumber mill. We both had a mid life crisis.. think we are gonna die in our 50's..or it was a quarter life crisis.. xD Anyhow we decided we would go live in his aunts house or go to Colorado. The thing with his aunt was crushed after we had already quit. Turns out the house wasn't just run down anymore, it was completely unlivable. So we moved on to the Colorado plan.. I tried finding apartments. Only they all wanted me to have a job already. But how do you have a job in a state you aren't in? I'm not highly skilled so I can't get people to hire me over the phone. We got frustrated and gave up. I got a new job that sucks.. and after 2 months he still can't find one. I'm making crap pay.. I have $64 left over after bills. His mom sends $400 so we come out okay. But she sent a letter this month.. no more money. She thinks we are fine now, and I don't have the heart/balls to ask for her to keep sending it. xD If we stay, we're screwed. Our savings will drain over time with nowhere better to work and no job for Pete. We have to go there and see people face to face for what we want. So we're doing it! TAKE IT! Haha. My mom is soo toxic. She is just an angry person, always has been. She throws fits when she doesn't get her way, she manipulates and uses people.. ugh she's done me wrong so many times. I messed around with this guy about 2 years ago. I was 23 or 24. He was 17 or 18. Legal but he was young for me. I ended up breaking things off. Well my mom, who is 21 years older than me started screwing him. Only instated of coming to me and talking about it, she hid it for months. She had hickeys and wouldn't say where they came from. Finally HE admitted it. I flipped on her for lying. I was grossed out too.. he was so young for her! And ew, I mean.. he had sex with me. It's just gross! So what did she do? Got mad at me. Said I had no right to say they couldn't be together. Fight after fight she put words in my mouth. I thought things but all I ever told her was I was mad she lied. And truth is that's all I was mad about. But she made it out like I wanted him. I was engaged. I had left him. But none of that mattered to her. It had to be my fault. She plastered on Facebook how I wanted her man and didn't love my fiance. She even got in arguments with my friends. I still forgave her for all that. Don't know why.


emotion_jawdrop *Mortified*
A mom should never breach a boundry like that!!
Hell, It sounds like she crossed more then one. Being off meds is a bit irresponsible emotion_donotwant
I kindof hope she goes back on them, and starts missing having you around.
It'll probably be too late to repair anything by then though.

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PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 9:01 pm


spaghettirex


Thank you!
PostPosted: Tue Jul 01, 2014 9:06 pm


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Yeah, that's how I feel. I don't know what to do about reconciling. I kind of want to talk to her the day I leave. But I don't want to tell her where I'm going.. or unblock her on Facebook. Her drama stays pretty silent when all she has is my number. So I may give her that.. someday.. only because now I know with Virgin I can change it for free every 24 hours. xD

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PostPosted: Tue Aug 05, 2014 7:34 pm


So I never posted about Colorado. It was really nice there. When we first got there, it was really late. We get to the hotel and there was a sign on the desk.. "If we smell marijuana smoke you will be charged $50" Hm. So we had drove 9 hours to this state to smoke marijuana and we hadn't realized you couldn't smoke it just anywhere. We didn't have time to obtain anything so it was okay. I started my search for where to smoke. It was very disappointing. Apparently you can't smoke it in public, in your car, in most hotels.. practically nowhere. I finally found this obscure site where a guy had complied a list of what hotels you could smoke in. Thank goodness. The next day we headed to Pueblo and the best rated dispensary we could find. I walked in and it was like a doctors office. Just chairs. They came out and asked for our ID's. Then we were taken into a small room. The most amazing room I have ever seen in my life. xD There were glass cases full of jars of marijuana. The girl who was helping us told us she was a "budtender". Haha. Instead of bartender, if you don't get it. She was so adorable and nice. She had curly hair and so many piercings, and when I saw her hairy armpits I was sold she was the coolest hippie chick I've ever met. xD She asked us what kind of high we liked. She let us smell everything and I told her just to sell us her favorite. I later learned the strain, Qushage, had received 3rd place in a Cannabis Cup a few years back. We bought a $2 pipe and headed for our marijuana friendly hotel.

We smoked up and it was amazing. 1 hit and I could feel it. It usually takes me 4 or 5. It smelled wonderful, tasted even better. High quality stuff.. and I believe it being organic was part of that. Everything that plant had ever been fed was right on the bottle.. natural spring water, worm castings, ect. You knew what went into the plant. I took 4 hits even though I only needed 2. My whole body tingled. A commercial came on and a guy was working in a wood mill.. I just started cracking up. xD Pete asked what was so funny, and I just said, "Wood." xD But honestly I don't know why it was funny.

A few hours later I was restless and ready to roam the streets. We walked around and found a "Hookah Lounge". We walked in and a few people were sitting around a hookah. They informed us they were actually closed and we could come back later. Apparently all they did there was sit around and smoke flavored tobacco. It was like a bar but with a chill atmosphere. Somewhere I thought it would be great to meet friends. But then Pete saw the bras hanging from the bar. He asked about it. They said, "Oh yeah, we have those." xD And no further explanation. Something about that and just the way they were rubbed Pete the wrong way. I thought they seemed cool. But we decided not to return that night.

Later at the hotel after getting high again I started thinking clearly. I realized how scary it all was. It was becoming real. We had really came all this way. We were there. We had nobody. With the heat we wouldn't want to be camping a lot, and hotels were $50 a night at the cheapest. You also can't smoke weed at any campground. I started to see how we would easily spend $100 a day.. especially with the fantastic weed. I was afraid we'd smoke our money and become even worse potheads. I started to get scared. I told Pete all I was feeling. He agreed and we started to regret what we had done. He told me he missed his mom and his friends. He told me maybe we should go back to Alabama. I realized how much his mom would enjoy it too. And how she would actually help us. She's been the only one helping us so far.. and to repay her we had moved even further away. I was scared but his mom seemed like a light at the end of the tunnel.

The next morning Pete called his mom. She was ecstatic and said we could stay with her. She said she'd cosign an apartment for us. It made sense. Support. Someone who loves us. Someone we actually enjoy being around. So we cut our losses, kicked ourselves in the face metaphorically and got our stuff out of storage we had just payed for the day before. xD

Thing was, we had about 1.5 - 2 grams of kush. In Missouri that's nothing.. most cops would take it and send you on your way. However we had like 6 hours of driving through Kansas.. where ANY amount is a minimum 10 months in prison. How ridiculous. So of course we aren't stupid enough to risk that. However 2 grams of kush is quite a bit.. it's fluffy and light. In 2 days we had smoked only about 1 gram between us both. So we headed back to Maggie's, the dispensary.

I saw an older man walking toward the door. I asked if he was going to Maggie's for medicine. He said he was. We explained how we couldn't drive with it in Kansas and we couldn't bear to throw it out. He was so happy. He told us how he barely had any money and just needed a bit of medicine. He said he had PTSD and a messed up arm and back from the war. He said it had driven him to drink every day and the meds the doctor gave did nothing. He said finally one day his daughter came to him and told him to smoke a joint. So he did. And he finally got the relief he needed. He said he moved to Colorado because he was tired of his medicine being a crime. He said he was working on his residency so he could get a medical card to be able to afford it. He asked us if we believed in Jesus. We told him no. He said, "That's okay! As long as you have something in your life to keep the negative out, that's all that matters! You just have to have something that keeps you positive." It really touched me. He told us his guardian angel was working overtime for bringing us to him. He hugged us both and thanked us. We even gave him our little $2 pipe and he was so happy about it. It felt so good. To me I almost feel it was guided by a higher power somehow. Anyone could have been there at that moment, anyone over 21 and maybe just someone who smoked for fun like me. But instead it was someone who needed the marijuana like medicine.. someone who was having a hard time affording it. We gave him about $40 worth of medicine. Just to think he went home and got to escape his pain for a little while was worth overbuying.

So our moving ended up to be a big mistake.. an expensive, unplanned vacation. xD But it was all worth it. It put things in perspective. Had we not done it maybe we would always wonder. And now we know our favorite place to vacation, haha.  
PostPosted: Wed Sep 03, 2014 8:24 pm


Me and Pete both got jobs today at Dominoes! We also started today, haha. It was a pretty weird deal.

I'm going to copy and paste the story from when I was talking about it in the Giveaway thread. xD

We inquired about working at a bbq place but all they were hiring for was drivers in your own car. Pete doesn't want to put wear on our car for minimum wage. So we left. We drove across town, and the owner had followed us! xD He told us he had another store he needed people at. If he was desperate enough to follow us all the way across town I think we're probably gonna get it. xD He was super nice and asked if we wanted to work together. Pete said it didn't matter, but that we only have one car, and he said, "Okay!" Like it was no big deal. We're supposed to meet him tomorrow.

So, we met him. He immediately just started telling us the dress code. Then he said, "Go out, get some black pants and black shoes and call me". xD No paperwork, no nothing. xD So we did. We called him and he asked us questions, entering stuff in the computer. He said come in at 5. So we came in and worked. No application, no paperwork, haha.

We were nervous as hell but after a few hours we were doing pretty good. Everyone told us at the end of the day we did great. biggrin I didn't love it, but I didn't hate it. I had to answer phones and take orders, and sometimes it's hard to understand people. One lady had bad cell service and kept cutting out. Pete was lucky, he got to make pizza. I can handle it though, it's better than a lot of other stuff I've done. And no hard labor at all, haha.  

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PostPosted: Thu Sep 04, 2014 8:10 am


Spenelli
Me and Pete both got jobs today at Dominoes! We also started today, haha. It was a pretty weird deal.

I'm going to copy and paste the story from when I was talking about it in the Giveaway thread. xD

We inquired about working at a bbq place but all they were hiring for was drivers in your own car. Pete doesn't want to put wear on our car for minimum wage. So we left. We drove across town, and the owner had followed us! xD He told us he had another store he needed people at. If he was desperate enough to follow us all the way across town I think we're probably gonna get it. xD He was super nice and asked if we wanted to work together. Pete said it didn't matter, but that we only have one car, and he said, "Okay!" Like it was no big deal. We're supposed to meet him tomorrow.

So, we met him. He immediately just started telling us the dress code. Then he said, "Go out, get some black pants and black shoes and call me". xD No paperwork, no nothing. xD So we did. We called him and he asked us questions, entering stuff in the computer. He said come in at 5. So we came in and worked. No application, no paperwork, haha.

We were nervous as hell but after a few hours we were doing pretty good. Everyone told us at the end of the day we did great. biggrin I didn't love it, but I didn't hate it. I had to answer phones and take orders, and sometimes it's hard to understand people. One lady had bad cell service and kept cutting out. Pete was lucky, he got to make pizza. I can handle it though, it's better than a lot of other stuff I've done. And no hard labor at all, haha.



xd That's so awesome!!

This guy must have been
really desperate to follow you guys lol
but it sounds like those jobs were meant
for you to have 3nodding
PostPosted: Thu Sep 04, 2014 12:21 pm


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xd That's so awesome!!

This guy must have been
really desperate to follow you guys lol
but it sounds like those jobs were meant
for you to have 3nodding


As soon as we got to the street I noticed it was 23rd street. So I knew we had the jobs before we walked in, hehe. Now Pete has to believe me about 23! Haha.

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