lorddd337
The things that i know now are the sixth sense about stuff that i didnt have before along with the stuff i know about myself is why i cant go back because id rather not loose that.
As for now, i have no idea where to go since my awakening and thats why im feeling lost.
Sometimes people are overwhelmed when they open their own doors of perception. It sounds as if you're getting a little of that. The only way back, really, is to nail those doors closed and pretend it never happened - but even then, that seldom works as people think it will. You really can't go back once you've opened that part of yourself. It may well have been simpler before hand, but one of the joys of adult life is learning to live with the consequences of our actions. You don't seem like you really want to go back, anyway.
You may feel directionless now, but you'll find a way. You don't have to rush off in any one direction at this point, tilting windmills like Don Quixote. Center yourself. Practice. Focus on honing whatever skills or abilities you've developed. pay attention to the world(s) around you, and take it one day at a time. If you're tired of feeling as if you're looking inward instead of out, practice looking at the world around you in a different way. I'm sure you'll figure out where you need to be or what you need to be doing in the future, but it's ok to take your time.