Last Wishes
This is one of those moments when you sit down and think. Everyone around you hates you and none of them can tell you why. Who cares? I am me. I will always be me. I can take the world on and they can destroy every last part of me but I will always end up myself. I thought I could survive anything, but I realized I was wrong… My heart’s been split in two, and I don’t know what to do. I am so hurt, so alone, so disappointed, so everything! How can I wake up everyday knowing she’s farther away from me, how can I wake up everyday knowing that this is not a dream, all that I fought for was for naught….. Everyone lies, everyone cheats, and everyone steals, but I believe that I am the only one that from the heart tried to make things better. What am I?! I am a lonely bug that squirms in this earth! Searching for love, affection, and I’m starving here! Do you think that just because you hurt me and you don’t want to put me through pain I’ll go? NO! I’ll run back even faster trying to make you feel happy, alive and most of all loved… I NEVER give up on any one, NEVER had, NEVER WILL. Why should I? Everyone deserves a chance and If I know I can make you happy and help you I will, I will care for you until my last breath. Yet the worse thing I could ever do to you is love you. I’ve gotten to love so much that I’ve thought about marriage…. MARRIAGE! Me a lonely nomad who only travels this planet for his own pleasure. I’ve thought of settling down, having kids… I’ve been left at the altar, my house is burned and my unborn little girls are dead….. I’ve been betrayed, lost friends, but it didn’t matter because In the end only our life mattered to me… Now I’m alone…. She’s finding herself….
What will this turn out to be?
I was just bound to die alone.
Just love me forever….
….Just kill me that’s all I want…..
He Will Wake….
…I Will Never Return….
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