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Day 2 - A Crush



Dear Nathan,

This is a bit taboo, isn't it? Haha, good thing I don't care. I hope you don't mind, either. Look, all I know is that I care about you. I know you care about me, too. That's really special, you know? When people care about each other like we do? It's something else. It's not as common as it should be. It's a wonderful thing.

That's why I couldn't risk hurting you last time.

When we were together, you have to understand, I was trying to be something I wasn't. I wanted to make it work, not by our standards, but by the standards of society. I think we both know, with me being what I am, that it was impossible. But I fought, tooth and nail, I fought who I was every day because I thought that's what it would take to be yours. I didn't understand that all it took to be with you was to tell you how I felt.

That's the real reason why I left.

It had nothing to do with you being clingy or being straight with me as a little exception to the rule. I was just afraid that you'd look at me like most of the world and turn away. So I turned away first. But now, I'm here again. I know you probably don't care about all this; you're probably just happy I'm back. That's just the kind of accepting, beautiful person you are.

But maybe you're afraid.

Maybe I really did a number on you, though I was the one who was in tears as I blubbered out a sorry and a goodbye, while you smiled and told me it was all okay. Maybe your chest aches the same way it does when it wants something it can't have. No, it's probably different than that. You had me. I just... left.

But I'm back now.

And I'm hoping and praying that you'll accept every apology I make as I explain the way I really feel, the way I've always felt. I know we're two boys. I know your mother would say it's not right. Believe me, so would mine. But I love you, Nathan. From the very first moment you finally spoke to me, I've loved you. And I am deeply in love with you. From our very first kiss we snuck in away from your friends in that hallway, to the passionate ones we gave to each other during the banquet without a care in the world as to who saw, I've done everything I know how to show you that. That's why I pressured you to do things, Nathan. That was the only way I knew how to show you. But I understand, now, that all you ever needed was a few gentle words and for me to be by your side.

And I will gladly give that to you, if you'll let me.

Professing my affections,
Hayden

Day 4 - Sibling



Dear Kamee,