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my soul waited for your arrival but you never showed up and my soul couldn't wait any longer

the last night in my life I thought about love and why I never fell into it for an eternity like mostly everyone else I knew had and I guess you could say I did but not the kind of love I was expecting

I wanted the love where we acted like idiots together but later turned into a make out session we would never forget; we would never forget every moment we spent together

sadly, I came to the realization that it wouldn't happen and I’ve waited too long for it to happen; I had to leave

I left to start a new life and repress my old memories to start anew but my memories stuck to me like glue

it felt like an entirely new world I forced myself into and I wasn’t ready to go, but I didn’t realize that until I already left and by then it was too late

I’d never be able to return and even though I begged and pleaded, it was against the rules and why would I be allowed to break them? I’m nothing special

you never showed up in my life so you'll never get to see these last words I spill for you but on the off chance you catch a glimpse of me and find me and maybe you fall in love at first sight, by the time you catch me it would be too late

maybe I shouldn’t have done what I did and stuck around for another five minutes to see the ghost that’s wandered through my soul all this time and finally just arrived

I wrote this note for a reason to believe you'll see it but how would that be possible if I’m not there to watch you read it?

if I hadn’t done what I did would this note have ever been written?

either way I’m in love with a stranger I never got a chance meet because death arrived five minutes early and swept me off my feet to take me to a faraway place you wouldn't dare to follow me there because after all we are just strangers

being in love won’t change that fact and I’m sure you could move on in as quickly as a snap.

I was nothing special and I doubted I ever would be but if I waited for another five minutes I would've doubted that doubt and felt like a princess with your lips pressed against mine

this story isn't over yet, I have one last thing to say; if you do decide to follow me to a place above everything, here's a small little tip before you do, don’t. keep your presence and remember me as the girl you were meant to spend your life with

I was the girl who had hoped for too long and gave up hope in the worst possible way

little did I know you were the boy looking for me for your entire life and I guess you could say I regret what I had done but maybe i don't and maybe you still manage to find beauty in me even as a corpse on my living room floor

the corpse of a stranger you were supposed to spend forever and a day with