Receiving letters from people I care about makes me happy in any form. I used to hate sorting through mailbox garbage. I recently obtained a letter from a friend in Ohio, who was someone I had actually met through world of warcraft back when I used to play. It's pretty amazing that people can connect on so many different levels... it's cool to know someone was thinking about me. The letter wasn't random, and this person had asked me before it was sent. I really appreciate it and I think I earned myself a pen pal.

Uhh, take it from me this is going to sound really stupid. xp but I think I learned something from Persona 4 as an emotionally charged experience. Hiding away in my room, preventing connections with everyone. I didn't really know any better, but it's those types of connections that will bring you out of the darkness. You need to face yourself and make more social links. It's your social links and the bonds you make with other people that are going to take you further. I think I am a little late to the party on this one, and I never really was all that smart socially but once again it's the familiar realization that I need to experience newer things, except this time it's not frustrating for me to type it.

Many of my inspirations are derived from life experiences. Morals and heroes of all kinds teach us in story of many things. If they did not, they wouldn't be heroes. This fact alone is one of the reasons as to why I wanted to become a writer and artist. To this day I am in the process of building up and creating my own. Alas, when I am lost in the rush I forget these facts and I need to slow myself down. A lot of things held dear are lost and kinda drift away into a sea of want.

There are many, many things you can learn from the imagination and creativity all around you, all over the place. I harp on that a lot, but it's true. Negativity encloses your mind, and conceals you... You don't know what you're fully capable of until you have opened up, and even than... there is a always a better feeling. This is the moral of my story. There are many people who won't be here long that I realize will always be with me in spirit. These people will forever be my heroes. There is an unfathomable amount of adventure, and ideas that push me forward. This will forever be my inspiration. I know I am going to think otherwise later, but right now being bored is literally an impossibility. All my life I wanted to feel this feeling with real people who wanted to accept me as an equal or someone who cared enough to not judge an opinion, to be free of thought and laughter. It sounds cheesy, but It's my reality.

There are days when time stands very still, and the pace of life slows down immensely. In these times comes a great deal of realization, and a fact. A lot of people say life is short, so you need to enjoy it. I am 22 years old, and I am pretty sure that life is long. How can I be expected to enjoy things if I am rushing through life? Slowing down is my necessity. That pace slows down gradually when I realize it's that bond that I just made.

Stan lee created marvel when he was 40 years old. In all of the life that I have lived up to now I am half that, and he is 90. There is a lot of time, maybe even too much. Maybe I sound like some kind of poetic a*****e. rofl but it's times like these that make it worth it. The point is: I want to have more times like these. I don't want that feeling to go away, so I should reach out and make more people happy at my own pace and stop thinking so much about me even if I realize this feeling will eventually go away because it certainly will. So here is to recording this feeling for the time being, and hoping that in the future I can make more bonds that will place me back on my own two feet.

If you took the time to read this, I appreciate it. I hope that you can find the ability to face yourself and achieve your life's goal. You have my blessing, (and the gods of metal I am sure.) and may you shine on and bring love to the people who make you feel the way I do at this very moment.