I seriously am starting to think i need mental help of the professional kind of course. I'm having crazy mood swings and i think i'm becoming depressed again. I go see a counselor once a week but i don't know if its doing the job it should. The more i find about myself the more i have to confront things that i've believe to be true for so long and its just bleh. Kinda makes me want to go mar my skin or something. I've picked up smoking for a short while. For some reasons it likes deadens my emotions for a little while. I hate it, hate the fact that i have to rely on smoking when i should be writing or taking anti-depressants, I know i need the help. I just have actually go do something about it....and that's my problem.