I recently made a thread about me and my insecurities...
Well...
I have decided that I'm not going to let them run my life forever, it came to my mind that I'm just playing head games with Satan.
It's not going to get me anywhere if I just dwell on the past and which guy hurt me, how he did it, ect...
I'm better than that.
If I just keep dwelling on the past and my screw ups, lack in good judgements, ect... I'm just going to keep pushing the one who care about me away.
The past is the past and well it's staying in the past, there is absolutely no need in bringing it back up and letting it run my life and relationships.
So far to help with getting over this insecurities bit...
I have been in the progress of getting rid all sources of negativity, like removing people from my friends list, stop watching certain shows and listening to certain bands...
I have also been working on not blowing up the boyfriends phone when he is out doing things with his friends.
That annoys him and I shouldn't be doing that anyway, I know he isn't a cheater or liar.
and i have been working on paying attention to things instead of being oblivious to EVERYTHING.
I recently got a comment from a coworker that I have been much better and shes proud of me.
I hope others take notice too soon.
I do ask that you keep praying for me though, I still have a lot of work to do before I'm 100% over this.
