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I can't deal with this goddamn disease. Grave's Disease sucks. I'm hungry all the time, wasting money I don't have on food just so I don't feel like I'm devouring myself from the inside out.
I'm tired and feeling some kind of under the weather almost all the time and this is compounded with my seasonal allergies kicking in.
Most of my energy during the day is speant being personable to my roommates and their friends, leaving me drained and in ill-temper when it comes time to do homework.
Every class I have takes place in a room with blinding florescent lighting or is online so I'm staring at a computer screen for a good five to ten hours at least. My eyes are in pain almost every day of the week. I'm sick of the pain. I just want to live in complete darkness with mountains of boxes of eyedrops. What's worse is this eye pain gives way to the headaches. They're like mini-migraines and all because of the goddamn studio lighting! And then my professor warn the class, "Unless you plan on getting points knocked off, work in the same lighting so that your colors will look the same."
Why did I have to develop the disease that makes bright light, a nessecity to my schooling and eventual profession, a source of ungodly pain?! It's like someone takes a sewing needle and is pointing me right above the lid for around 3 - 9 hours of my day and that's not including my homework.
I can't bear to think of homework. More bright light, more staring, and more movement. I'm so lathargic some days it's unreal. I just don't want to move. I don't even want to draw. My fingers are numb, tingly and swollen from this sickenss and my joints ache to the point where unless it's a bad day, like today, I can't really tell half the time because I'm just used to the fact.
My body has assimilated to the fact that when my eyes are bugging out of my head and throbbing in pain, I can block it out. When my fingers are numbe and it hurts to flex my wrists and elbow, I can still work. When my ankles feel like giving out because I've been carrying mountains of supplies and giant pads of paper around campus, I can keep walking.
But not today. Today I want to weak. I am sick and I am tired and I want to quit. But I can't. I have class tomorrow. I already missed a day last week and I need to attend. I need to turn in my assignments, sit in the back of the room where the lights are the dimmest and squint for three hours.

If it consoles you, you can tell your Instructor your disease and maybe he'll step back a few feet and allow you some privileges.

Although I've never heard of the disease, I empathize with you. It must be horrible to live with such pain, I couldn't even handle my eye twitching for a week (not meaning that my problem is worse, I wouldn't want to do that) but you have to deal with this every day!

Maybe you should go see a doctor, and if the doctor isn't helping maybe a naturopath? My mom goes there for all her 'organic' medicines for her problems and it might help you. Oh, and if it's any consolidation I could try and get a bunch of people who I know to pray for you, even if you don't believe, it could be a small hand to hold metaphorically.

Anyhow, I hope you can somewhat get yourself through the day, and please don't give up.

Thank you for the hugs. -return hug- It's been another rough week and it feels good to read this over again.

I haven't actually thought of asking about those. I wrote off the idea because of the distorting effect they could have on values and colors for when I'm doing classwork and homework.
I am on pills right now. I am vehemtly against radioactive iodine. I want to stick it out as long as I can with hopes it can go into remission almost indefinately. (50% chance. I'm crossing my fingers!)