Hello.

This was originally meant to be long, angry rant. It would probably be quite offensive and aggressive, with lots of buttons pushed, irritation, frustration...

But then something hit me. As angry and upset I am, it wouldn't exactly change anything. If anything, it would just lower my image, warping and twisting until there would be nothing left. I'd rather be remembered differently, would this be the last time I'd be seen.

It all started after the fire some time ago. After testing my blood, the doctors found told me I didn't look healthy. Not because of the fire and smoke, but because of something else. I've been going back every once in a while for some other tests, just to figure out what's wrong with me. So far, they haven't exactly struck gold. It's been fine for a while, but...

My condition is getting worse. I haven't slept properly for three months. If I do sleep, it's a restless one. Most of the time I just pass out, waking up in cold sweat.

I have blackouts occasionally, leaving no memory of anything that happened during that time. The only times I see what's happened is when I've written something down and talked to people during my unconsciousness. They happen more frequently lately.

My immune system is acting up. It makes me sick one day and completely healthy the next. I've had to call in sick several times for work only to be completely fine in the evening.

I have strong mood swings, my mind always fluttering between emotions, I have no energy, no appetite, no nothing.

This Monday, the doctors said they wanted to start therapy sessions to rule out any mental disabilites or sicknesses. They need to do so, because what comes next is some sort of rare disease. Maybe an infection or a parasite. It could be anything at this point. My friend jokingly said I have split personalities, and each of my personalities have a different sickness. Either way, I'm getting worse every week. The doctors said that whatever I would have probably isn't lethal, but since they don't know, they can't rule out that possibilty either.

Regardless, the sessions are going to cut down on my online time significantly. I'd still be able to get on, to be fair...

But there are underlying reasons why I can't bring myself to get on when it only brings me more stress and bad emotions here. I'd rather spend my time doing things I enjoy then.

I don't think it'll take longer than a month. When I get back, might be a changed man. If I don't...

Well, anything is possible at this point.

I've asked a mod to close this topic once it's posted, because I don't want people posting things about this in the forums. I'm only looking to inform of my current situation, and I'd rather just keep it informative and not discussion material.

Pip pip cheerio. Hopefully not for the last time.