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"...N-no, Susan! Don't cry! I... I'm sorry, I shouldn't have... I mean I didn't..." Penelope leaned further forward and grabbed Susan's hands, her voice jumping an octave in her panic. "Please don't cry!" It really was stupid of her to think that she would be able to deal with this situation better as a girl. No matter what, male or female, she was still a nervous softie. She had to congratulate herself though. The last thing she had wanted to do was upset Susan, and she had succeeded gracefully. Of course, what had she expected to happen, really? When she thought about it, most of the time, in fact all of the time she had spent with Susan up to just recently had been when she was a girl. She should have known that switching would only make things easier on herself...

"Sorry." She repeated. "I'm... I'm stupid. I should have just... The last thing I wanted was to... er... I... I'm willing to try." She said determinedly. "Decided just now. If... Well, I mean if you want to... As long as you get it, which ah, which you certainly... certainly seem to. I'll just... try to stay a boy, and when I'm not... er... I'll just think of us as REALLY close friends... yeah..."

Had she jumped the gun? Neither of them had actually ever said that they wanted to get into a relationship with the other. It had all just sort of been implied over the course of the conversation (albeit the implications were fairly blunt and really sort of obvious.) Still, as she was the man (the ridiculousness of that statement notwithstanding) traditionally it was up to her to make the first move right?

Well, Susan's response had quelled any of Penelope's fears about assuming too much. "Um... yeah." She said, resisting the urge to drop Susan's hands and lean back from the awkwardness. "I mean, as your friend, I want you to be happy and ah, and... date, someone who makes you happy... a-and will treat you right, and won't hurt you, and stuff. And if you think that person is me... well, the ah, the other me, I mean, we're both me but... If you think I'm him, then... As your friend, It's nice to know you'll be with someone who cares about you." She blushed. "Because I care about you... a-as your friend right now, but when I'm a boy..."

She shook her head and chuckled. "I just don't get why you would even want to try Susan." She said, releasing her friend's hands and sitting up in her chair. "This whole thing confuses me, and I'm the one it happens to... I mean, right now? I'm not even gonna be able to change back into Percy unless I look some guy in the eyes, and that's not exactly the sort of thing that I'm willing to do to some random person in a teahouse you know? I won't... be him again... for a while I don't think. Not to mention the odd crush or two I seem to have... So you'll be stuck with me, until who knows when, and, a-and."

Penelope blinked. Susan had just said something in Japanese. She watched more than enough anime to know that it was definitely japanese, and that the last word meant something along the lines of... please, or... if you would? Some sort of form of mild imploring. But for the most part, she had absolutely no idea what she had just said.

"Er... I just said I wanted to." She said, still slightly thrown. "To try I mean..." she looked away, turning slightly pink again. "And well... If you want to try, and er... I want to try then... Then I guess we're in agreement right?"

She fiddled with her empty teacup. "So... What happens now? I mean... not really experienced with this... sorta stuff. I mean, I had a g... a ah, girlfriend once, but that didn't really... last very long... long story really. Do we... I mean, gonna have to wait and all, cause it would be sort of weird now... I mean, sort of... but do you... maybe, I don't know... want to... go to a movie sometime or something?"

Penelope smiled at Susan halfheartedly. She was glad to see how happy her friend was with how things turned out but... saying there were conflicting feelings in her mind would be a mild understatement. On one hand, she was nervous, and excited. Or rather, she understood that she would be nervous and excited and most probably very deeply smitten with Susan once she changed back into a boy. On the other hand... she was sort of creeped out. She had just asked a girl out on a date. Certainly would have been a little less weird if she wasn't currently a girl herself. Her mind currently only saw Susan as a good friend... a good friend who was into her. It almost made her want to shudder.

On the other OTHER hand (assuming she hypothetically had three hands and by extension, three arms.) As Susan was a good friend, she was excited that she had managed to "grab a man", or whatever it was she was supposed to call it. It was a little odd that the man in question was the other version of herself... though technically it was both versions. She was just thinking of it this way to keep herself calm.

And mildly confused apparently.

"Ah... I don't really... I don't really know." She admitted. "I don't actually go to the movies very often. I just thought that was... you know, the sort of thing people do when they go on da-..." she swallowed, finding the word difficult to say. "Wh-hen they go... out. A-and I mean its probably better... if ah, if we wait until I manage to... to switch back. I mean, it'll probably be ah... more enjoyable for
.. both of us."

Penelope sighed. She had certainly picked a keeper hadn't she? Quiet, calm, unabrasive. As much as it wierded her out to admit it, they were a pretty good match. Or... were opposites supposed to attract? She didn't really hold to either theory. "I'm more of a book person too... So... why don't we meet up at the Library, or the bookstore or something? Sometime soon I mean, instead of the theater. Then we could... I dunno... Hang out there? I mean... yeah. How does that sound?"

Penelope blushed again. She had been doing that a lot today, with good reason of course. "A-ah no. You don't have to do that. I can pay for myself thanks. Things were already weird enough with the whole situation without having her tea paid for by her "girlfriend" , and she wasn't about to make things any more uncomfortable for herself.

"Um... so... the bookstore then? I'll um... yeah. We can meet up there sometime soon and... I don't know... hang out? Yeah." She looked to her empty teacup, fairly unsure of what to say next. Maybe... she should just go? She didn't know if Susan still wanted to hang out, or go do something else, or if she would be anxious to see Percy. She didn't want to cut things short, but she couldn't help feeling awkward about the whole situation. She was still trying very hard to not think about the fact that she had said she would go out with a girl... even if it was Susan.

"Er... so if that sounds good, I think I'm gonna... gonna go soon." She scratched an itch on her forearm. I mean, unless you want to go do something or... something... and I'll see you at the bookstore... tommorow?"