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Arex: you are poopy
GA: ATGWvakhb
Arex: NO YOU ARE
GA: Alex.
GA: Do you think I need to be quiet more often?
GA: because I always say such stupid s**t in class?
Arex: eh?

GA: Like today
GA: I just made s**t up.
Arex: you rarely speak... whatd you say?
GA: instead of just admitting I wasn't--

GA: I just said that the name of the cafe
GA: the second name
GA: was sort of demeaning to the stereotype
GA: of those guys out on the highway
GA: with signs and stuff
GA: and everyone was all
GA: "what'd she say??"

Arex: because you speak so freaking low i couldnt even hear you
GA: the time before that, I was saying something in a really weird voice...
GA: intentionally
GA: but it was still audible to me, and understandable
GA: Everyone was murmuring

GA: and I heard someone say I was being stupid
GA: and a whole bunch of
GA: wtf?
GA: and whaaaaaaaaat?

GA: It's like whenever I speak, I say something stupid.
GA: and I don't want to really talk anymore.
GA: because I'm not stupid
GA: and nobody'll think I am if I don't say stupid things
GA: Right?
Arex: well usually when you talk in global studies, only people sitting next to you can hear you. in english, the holden thing kind of was.

Arex: well people will forget you exist i you dont speak. like i never noticed luke was in my class until like 2 weeks ago
GA: Oh.
GA: I sort of want to be forgotten, though.
Arex: then go for it

GA: But I stand out too much.
Arex: not really your kind of short
GA: Not height, dipshit.
Arex: your hair you mean?
GA: And I wear jackets that make my hair disappear
GA: so nobody pays attention
GA: -_-;
GA: I didn't really want it green at first

Arex: well then stop sticking out what can i say?
GA: I don't know
GA: Sorry for bothering you.
Arex: i mean i never thought anything you said was stupid, neither did anyone else really, and there's always someone who thinks you are, the world is full of marina and abbys, just speak up next time if the "whatd she say?"s annoy you

GA: That's the problem though, I didn't think I was quiet..
GA: I have no sense of volume outside my own head.
GA: and that's why I tend not to speak a lot, already.
GA: but I have too much to say, and that's pretty apparent over AIM.

Arex: well try to do what youd consider yelling, its better to be heard loud than not to be heard at all
GA: ._.
GA: Do I usually talk like I've lost my voice or something?
Arex: kind of

Arex: it sounds like your embarassed to be heard
GA: Oh...
GA: i sort of am.: ._.

One of the reasons I don't talk unless I'm with my best-best friends. Other reasons are I hate myself. My vioce is stupid. I'm used to not saying anything, from never talking in middle school. And It feels weird to know that people actually want my opinion on things. I've been posting a bit less on Gaia lately because of these...
Actually, because of these, I started posting whatever song I was listening to. So I wouldn't have to say much of anything else.
I got myslef a new nick-name though. Silent Bob.
But with that, people expect me to say something out of the blue, somethng beautiful and profound...

I always worry that my voice sounds like a hick, so when I travel I hardly say anything. On my last college visit one of the tour guides asked me where I was from, and when I told her she was all, "Oh, I thought you sounded like you were from there." -_____________________-