Don't ******** yell at me to do those things.
I haven't done my part? While you were slacking off, not even bothering to find out how to get the shirts made, I was sitting here for hours on end, thinking up ideas and drawing s**t.
And FYI, it just so happens that I have 2 things done. And have been done for MONTHS. Some since LAST YEAR. And you JUST NOW found a site? And I'M not doing my part?
I don't think you understand how artistry works. See, it takes this thing called "inspiration" to get things done. And you also need these pictures in your head called "ideas". And while you're standing there, yelling at me to draw something as I quietly try to defend myself, completely disregarding my REASONS, not excuses, REASONS to not be getting good stuff done, you're not only discouraging me, you're kinda only inspiring me to sit on my a** and type meaningless rants about you that you'll never read.... And draw my own crappy s**t and OCs for my own personal amusement.
So thank you. I kinda wanna slack off and not do anything on purpose just to tick you off, and then listen to music really loudly so I can't hear your ******** up ramblings about how I'm not doing my s**t.
It's not as easy as you think, Sweetie. I'd LOVE to see you try it. I'd really love to see you think of something out of the blue, in a split second, and draw it perfectly in five minutes. I'd really love to see you try doing that.
And, I don't know if you've noticed, but everything you said was good, or cool, that I've drawn takes either a TON of hours, or even days to get done. The demon girl with her arm out, welcoming people? Took me about two weeks. That zombie-ish girl you want tattooed? Months. The girl sitting with a guitar, crying? Three days or so. That cupcake? Three or so hours. The lollipops? Two or so hours.
And another thing, I keep telling you that I've only been able to create REALLY good stuff on Paint Tool SAI. But guess who hasn't been trying to get me the full version? CORRECT! You. Oh, believe me, I have about.... 4 ideas. But I can't do them without SAI. It just won't work in MS Paint, and my other program is crappy and has a limited amount of layers, and the tools suck. So, that's your fault right there, Darlin'.
And when nothing has inspired you to draw, you can't draw. You think you know what the ******** you're talking about, but you don't. You have no ******** idea how hard it is to just get a small glimpse of an idea without any real inspiration. And then do you know how frustrating and discouraging it is when you try to draw it, and it doesn't turn out right? And no matter how many times you try, and no matter what you do, it just doesn't work out? And it just so happens that that idea you had was PERFECT, but you just can't do it? No? Sorry, then I guess you're the wrong person to be saying this s**t.
So, you know what? ******** you. ******** this. I'll give stuff to you when I have it done. And I'll get it done when I get an idea. But I won't if this s**t continues. I would tell this to you upfront, or just show you this rant, but it'll only get me in trouble. So I'll just keep it to myself and let you discourage me more until I finally just give up and do my own s**t forever. Maybe I'll only tell you that? I dunno. It really depends on you. And how you act.
So, until you get your facts straight, and stop taking everything I say as an excuse, SHUT THE ******** UP AND LET ME DO MY s**t WITHOUT YOUR GODDAMN, ******** UP, CLOSED MINDED INPUT.
Nuff said.
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I'm not going to explain this. All you need to know is my sister and I are setting up an online shop for shirts with our drawings on them. (And no, it's not my sister who I'm mad at. My sister's getting the same bullshit.)
I just needed to blow off steam. But I'm still pissed. So much for rants.
I haven't done my part? While you were slacking off, not even bothering to find out how to get the shirts made, I was sitting here for hours on end, thinking up ideas and drawing s**t.
And FYI, it just so happens that I have 2 things done. And have been done for MONTHS. Some since LAST YEAR. And you JUST NOW found a site? And I'M not doing my part?
I don't think you understand how artistry works. See, it takes this thing called "inspiration" to get things done. And you also need these pictures in your head called "ideas". And while you're standing there, yelling at me to draw something as I quietly try to defend myself, completely disregarding my REASONS, not excuses, REASONS to not be getting good stuff done, you're not only discouraging me, you're kinda only inspiring me to sit on my a** and type meaningless rants about you that you'll never read.... And draw my own crappy s**t and OCs for my own personal amusement.
So thank you. I kinda wanna slack off and not do anything on purpose just to tick you off, and then listen to music really loudly so I can't hear your ******** up ramblings about how I'm not doing my s**t.
It's not as easy as you think, Sweetie. I'd LOVE to see you try it. I'd really love to see you think of something out of the blue, in a split second, and draw it perfectly in five minutes. I'd really love to see you try doing that.
And, I don't know if you've noticed, but everything you said was good, or cool, that I've drawn takes either a TON of hours, or even days to get done. The demon girl with her arm out, welcoming people? Took me about two weeks. That zombie-ish girl you want tattooed? Months. The girl sitting with a guitar, crying? Three days or so. That cupcake? Three or so hours. The lollipops? Two or so hours.
And another thing, I keep telling you that I've only been able to create REALLY good stuff on Paint Tool SAI. But guess who hasn't been trying to get me the full version? CORRECT! You. Oh, believe me, I have about.... 4 ideas. But I can't do them without SAI. It just won't work in MS Paint, and my other program is crappy and has a limited amount of layers, and the tools suck. So, that's your fault right there, Darlin'.
And when nothing has inspired you to draw, you can't draw. You think you know what the ******** you're talking about, but you don't. You have no ******** idea how hard it is to just get a small glimpse of an idea without any real inspiration. And then do you know how frustrating and discouraging it is when you try to draw it, and it doesn't turn out right? And no matter how many times you try, and no matter what you do, it just doesn't work out? And it just so happens that that idea you had was PERFECT, but you just can't do it? No? Sorry, then I guess you're the wrong person to be saying this s**t.
So, you know what? ******** you. ******** this. I'll give stuff to you when I have it done. And I'll get it done when I get an idea. But I won't if this s**t continues. I would tell this to you upfront, or just show you this rant, but it'll only get me in trouble. So I'll just keep it to myself and let you discourage me more until I finally just give up and do my own s**t forever. Maybe I'll only tell you that? I dunno. It really depends on you. And how you act.
So, until you get your facts straight, and stop taking everything I say as an excuse, SHUT THE ******** UP AND LET ME DO MY s**t WITHOUT YOUR GODDAMN, ******** UP, CLOSED MINDED INPUT.
Nuff said.
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I'm not going to explain this. All you need to know is my sister and I are setting up an online shop for shirts with our drawings on them. (And no, it's not my sister who I'm mad at. My sister's getting the same bullshit.)
I just needed to blow off steam. But I'm still pissed. So much for rants.
...Heart under the floorboards. Beats for Lenore. Nevermore.
