Aspen 2010
Everything, the belief of Christ as the Son of God and the Messiah, the Virgin Mary, the pope as their spiritual leader, I just do not believe in Mass anymore.
Pretty much what Called the Raven just said, but i have something that might be helpful:
You do not belive in mass, because you don't feel the holy prescence there, according to what you said before.
One, i doubt all catholics feels that, if any of them truly does it at all.
Two:
Jesus said something about people saying "he is here" or "he is there", and that he would not be there.
This may be so with the mass and the altar too.
So, even though some have felt divine prescense at the Mass and the Altar, it may not be for you.
Do not go where others tell you to, to find God or Jesus.
I can't even give you a proper direction, for the same reason.
Perhaps i can say this: Try to find your own way, your own relation to God and Jesus.