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Erik just sighed and shook his head. "Never mind..." He closed his eyes, he was still weak and tired from the blood loss. "I'll tell you later." He moved enough to curl next to him, keeping his head on his chest but took his good arm and hugged onto it.

It would be a couple months before Erik would be able to get back to work properly without his back or wrist hurting. There was not a sign of a new insanity breakdown, but his actions to himself gave him two new scars which he didn't like so much. He did though, find some soothing music to listen to that would keep his mind at ease when he worked in his office and didn't have anyone keeping an eye on him. He still couldn't forgive himself for what he did to Corbin.
Sitting at his desk he never touched the drawer with the photo in it since what happened. Leaning back some in his chair he was thinking he needed some fresh air, some time away from his work but his ear twitched about his worries again. Getting up from his chair he walked around his desk and paged for Corbin to come in his office. He paced as he waited for him.

Erik leaned into his touch some with a frown on his face. He waited for him to stop nuzzling him before he latched onto Corbin. His ears were drooped as he tried to be careful of his lovers side while he moved against him, hugging him rather tight. "I'm alright now... I had a strange feeling another episode was coming up." He noticed the tight muscles as he looked up at Corbin. "Can we go out? Maybe to get you to a massage therapist for your arm and side? I really need the fresh air as well."

Erik moved just slightly so Corbin would miss his nose only to kiss him in return. "I want you to talk to one today. You still walk with a limp because of me and I don't feel any better unless I know you're completely alright. Yes, I do watch you while you work sometimes." He blushed lightly. "Anyways, come on, lets go out to this cafe I know, then we can grab a bite after we meet this therapist for you."

Erik wished he didn't loose his mind and cut off his wing like he did that time. He used his wings to get to higher places when he needed stuff and to climb things better. It also helped when he wanted to get face to face with Corbin and argue...sometimes kiss him. "You've worked with me before First Aid was even pregnant with his little girls, you should know by now how stubborn I can be. You don't need to apologize. You're a lot stronger than First Aid and if he came in instead of you, I'm sure he would have been killed instantly." He poked Corbin's sore side gently before hugging onto him again. "Though that doesn't change ....it doesn't ....I'm just glad you're alive. Sometimes the fear of loosing you or..." He paused as he gripped onto his lovers shirt. "That reminds me, I still haven't told you what I needed to tell you." He gave a slight tug to Corbin's shirt wanting him to sit on the couch in his office.

Erik's ear lowered as he sat in Corbins lap. "You can't breath a word about this to anyone else. You need to know though to keep yourself on your toes. I've been lieing to you about my family. They're not dead, but very much alive. Every single one of them. You haven't met any of them and I'm scared that if they met you, and feared you'd be of threat to the family you'd be killed, tortured, or worse, kept alive and used as one of their wax museum dolls. Meaning you'd be in pieces or cut open in display like such." He clenched his fist to his pants. " What you've experienced from me is something very small compared to what they can do. My whole family and I mean whole family now is insane. That includes me. I've tried so hard to be as normal as possible, but.... the nightmares, torture, the things that were done to me because of my lineage and not from my family seems to have brought it out in me as well." He was scared now on what Corbin would think on all of this. "After awhile I'll probably be just as bad as them. I can't bare harming you and I could never live with myself if my family hurt you either, but after all these years of being so miserable for once in my life I'm actually happy, happy being with someone that isn't family. I'm just so scared I don't want to loose you, I love you to much to lose you." Tears were already falling from his face, he wanted to hug onto him, but he also felt he didn't deserve the comfort for lieing to Corbin.

Erik frowned at Corbins words. "If the Bot came with they would all be slaughtered the same and don't you ever, EVER say that!" He wanted to scold him rather harshly for even the idea of dieing with him. "If it came to my coming of death it would be because I harmed others, I don't want people hurt or dead, and specially not you. If they loose one doctor it's hard enough but two? It just means that much more in patients that are lost." Erik gave a deep sigh. Being in his lap and the comfort helped a lot, it also meant he didn't feel as short when sitting in Corbins lap. Moving to his knees he straddled his loves lap, placing a hand on each side of his face. "You're such a Moron at times,..." Leaning forward he gave his love a gently kiss. "...It's alright though, it just means more to love."