INB4I'MGETTINGABUSED
What's happened in this last week alone?
I had like a 3 hour long crying session with Tom holding me whilst I just cried and cried about how low my self-esteem was and how I thought everyone merely tolerated me and how I don't understand why anyone would like me.
I had that 'argument' with Tom about the tampons.
This morning I asked about the party that Tom had invited me to which I would meet him at. He texted back saying "it's more of a gathering than a party so I'm not sure how much fun it would be for you..." Which for some reason I just irrationally responded to and went "if you don't want me to come just say it". And he replies "when you put it like that you make me sound like a d**k."
Then I decided that I wasn't going to go down this texting argument thing again so I called him. And we sorted it out. I explained that it sounded like he was making excuses for why he didn't want to see me. So he just said that last time I went out with his friends, I felt awkward, so he didn't know if I wanted to go to this one or not. I said I wanted to, if only to see him, because I know I'm going to be working at home for a month over Easter holidays and we won't see much of each other so we should try and make the most of the time we have. And he said "Believe it or not I want to spend time with you. I know you don't always believe that because you have your own issues going on but please trust me."
Anyway I've just been such an emotional, miserable wreck lately. It's like the floodgates just opened.
Idk. Could be stress. I'm feeling quite stressed over my workload and my exams at the minute. I'm stressed because I don't want to work over Easter because I feel like I have more schoolwork than I thought, but I feel obligated now I told them I could come into work.
Maybe hormones. I didn't get my BC sorted out yet, I just haven't had the chance to go to the clinic and ask about it.
But yeah, how do you handle this? How does anyone handle suddenly feeling like you're losing control of yourself?
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