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 Posted: Mon Mar 05, 2012 12:33 am
I am at a total loss as to what to do with my self, my friend i was going to travel with ******** me over, hard with no reach around, at the last min decided not to go, day we were leaving! after i gave him a place to stay when his wife kicked him out, and let him ******** a fat chick on my couch. So as is i have nothing, nothing i gave all my clothes i wasn't taking to good will, sold my car put my two weeks in at work though out everything i couldn't pack even my bed much of the money i had saved is gone, need to help my mom out with her bills, and worst of all im running out of Jack Daniels and pot ...
i dont know what to do any more ive always prided myself on having personal strength, but thats a lie, for a small moment in my life i felt hope and allowed myself to dream now thats dead. and here i am turning to the only friends i trust, never let me down in any way or form, your the only ppl who seen me at my worst and still except me, oh god how pathetic am i.
seriously what should i do i dont trust myself to make sound decisions, im grasping at straws here trying to hold on to my sanity.
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Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2012 7:44 pm
Its been a few days I wish I got here sooner. whats the new update? (I don't want to give advice based on old info.)
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Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2012 9:48 pm
found out its not enough to be stabed in the heart by Justin(guy ive been whining about) but he had to stab me in the back by bad mouthing me to his soon to be ex wife, i introduced them, im the self proclaimed god father to there son and i gave him a place to stay and last night found out hes going around telling her im a lier, manipulating and cant be trusted, for what? cuz i know a few secrets he wouldn't want her to know, so what to i do i tell here every thing i know and broke out the pics, i would have keeped everything to myself yeah he ******** me over i can deal, but ill be damned if if you think you can talk trash about me, behind my back, to manipulate a friend.
i cant be manipulating i dont have the ppl skills, and i dont talk smack about ppl behind there back that i wouldint or havint said to there face...
so yeah still pathetic here.
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 2:54 am
just now i realized i reached a new low, been watching law and order (not the rape one) for 2 hours and youtubeing kitten videos...
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 4:16 am
BogiePop found out its not enough to be stabed in the heart by Justin(guy ive been whining about) but he had to stab me in the back by bad mouthing me to his soon to be ex wife, i introduced them, im the self proclaimed god father to there son and i gave him a place to stay and last night found out hes going around telling her im a lier, manipulating and cant be trusted, for what? cuz i know a few secrets he wouldn't want her to know, so what to i do i tell here every thing i know and broke out the pics, i would have keeped everything to myself yeah he ******** me over i can deal, but ill be damned if if you think you can talk trash about me, behind my back, to manipulate a friend. i cant be manipulating i dont have the ppl skills, and i dont talk smack about ppl behind there back that i wouldint or havint said to there face... so yeah still pathetic here. You did exactly what he thought you would do?
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 7:52 am
s**t do you think i got played? he had to know she tell me what he said about me she tell me every thing, and i mean everything. or maybe shes the one who played me for the fool, NO i cant be thinking of that shes one of my oldest friends, one of the few who hasint forgotten me. no he was up set when he called to try and b***h me out...
im angry, betrayed, and miserable. i honestly dont know what to do with these feelings, ive beem emotionally stunted for as long as i can remember, i never learned the proper way to turn to others for help, s**t happens you deal with it and move on, that the way i lived my life always trying to keep emotions in check. yeah theyll flair up ever now and again but i kept control over them, but now im thinking in the long run ive ******** myself over more then anything.
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 8:12 am
my apologies for all my whining, ive never vented to any one on this level, and its ether keep it in and deal, or let it spew forth like the mental diarrhea it is, and i just dont need all that noise in my head im ill prepared to handle.
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 9:58 am
Seems to me that you still have a lot of growing up to do Bogie. I'm not bad mouthing you here, you just do.
He ******** you over. That is certain.
Then instead of apoligizing to you and try to make it up to you like a bro should do he used you as a scape goat by tarnishing your face so he can save his own.
He was a bad choice in friend, bro. The lesson in this is you don't ever concidare a drinking buddy or a college bro an actual bro until you truely know that persons inner thoughts at any given situation.
But on the flipside when he innitaily ******** you over did you respond by sitting him down and having a calm (if heated) discussion about why he ******** you over?
Or did you end up yelling and screaming at each other? It doesn't matter who started the yelling match because once it started you should have immediatly stopped it. Yelling gets you into s**t places in life.
If you sat him down though you may have found out the he could have ******** you over for only two reasons. 1) he's a lazy p***k. If thats the case you should stop being friends with him immediatly because he will ******** you over again.
or 2) He has a kid so he can't just drop everything to go with you even if he wanted to. This is respectable. I personally could forgive a man for this reason (even if he could have handled it much better.)
Now. Lets break down the second part of the backstabbing.
There is scenarios I can think of to this backstabbing. A scenario where he used you as a scapegoat with his Ex to save face (which is a completely normal thing to do) and you reacted exactly how he described you.
and a scenario where he spread rumors around your social group (which is a p***k thing to do unless you started it first) and you reacted exactly how he described you.
The fact is, Bogie you're getting too worked up. I want you to take some time today, go for a walk, listen to your ipod, have some sex, what ever you do to calm down. I want you to think for a moment about everything that has happened and what you should do next that's in the best interest for yourself without letting anger, hurt feelings, or any other emotions get in the way. Then I want you to do exactly that. Even if your emotions are telling you not to. Because more than likely you will thank yourself later.
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2012 10:46 pm
thank you what you said is quite insightful.
i did try and talk calmly to him when he said he wasint going to leave i swallowed my anger and said lets just sleep on it. that morning he gos and brakes down the door to his ex to kid nap his son... i tryed to go see him in lock up, but when i do see him hes braging about already getting a job and askes me to be a character reference at his trial.that was two week ago and the last ive herd from him. then a few days a when K his ex hits me up to go out, ive been friends with her for the better part of a decade and i cant blame her for avoiding me when he was staying here, i wouldint have said a thing to about what hi did when he was staying here, untill she said told me he was trying to talk her out of going out with me, and she had the texts messages. so i had to pock holes in the lies he was telling her witch destroyed his chances of getting her to drop the charges.
as of right now i feel alot better i found a bed to sleep in for the day, got some yoohoo and comics, and im thinking of putting apps in at some the sex toy stores this weekend.
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Posted: Sat Mar 10, 2012 5:16 pm
BogiePop thank you what you said is quite insightful. i did try and talk calmly to him when he said he wasint going to leave i swallowed my anger and said lets just sleep on it. that morning he gos and brakes down the door to his ex to kid nap his son... i tryed to go see him in lock up, but when i do see him hes braging about already getting a job and askes me to be a character reference at his trial.that was two week ago and the last ive herd from him. then a few days a when K his ex hits me up to go out, ive been friends with her for the better part of a decade and i cant blame her for avoiding me when he was staying here, i wouldint have said a thing to about what hi did when he was staying here, untill she said told me he was trying to talk her out of going out with me, and she had the texts messages. so i had to pock holes in the lies he was telling her witch destroyed his chances of getting her to drop the charges. as of right now i feel alot better i found a bed to sleep in for the day, got some yoohoo and comics, and im thinking of putting apps in at some the sex toy stores this weekend. Ok. Kidnaping his own son. You didn't tell me he belonged in a loonybin... As for the Ex, I wouldn't go near her man. Never have sex with another bro's ex is a golden rule. Plus if she's the one with the kid the extra baggage might hold you down for what YOU want to do with your life. But other than that it looks like you pretty much stayed standing through the whole ordeal and just need to find a job.
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2012 9:57 am
neutral sex with her?... burning_eyes
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2012 4:23 pm
BogiePop neutral sex with her?... burning_eyes If she's getting close to you she might think you're Bi instead of gay. Its happens to a few buddies of mine.
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2012 8:47 pm
lol there no way that would ever happen we discussed it, and if i ever want a children were going with a turkey baster, and she not even the only one to offer there ovaries to me but she was the first heart
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