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I started this year out pretty roughly. I found out that people that I thought were my friends didn't care or respect me. My time last semester at my old apartment at college was really rough because I had a roommate, who was a friend, with anxiety, who wanted me to clean up everything everyday. And as for me, I'm not a neat freak, but I do my chores like do my dishes at the end of the day, take away my things from the front room, and clean up thoroughly on the weekend. but it was never enough for her. She was picky about how I used her stuff to the point where I gave up on asking her. Example:" Me: Can I use this really quickly? Her: Yeah, but be careful" (I got this answer all the time) Whenever I needed her, I got nothing but empty promises. After she yelled at me, I lost all respect for her. I got so depressed that my grades suffered, but I was so convinced that i could stay with my friend and work things out.
The next semester was worse, my landlord moved me up to a room where there was another girl who literally told me that she was gonna be worse than my old roommate and she yelled at me as she told that. I got so angry that this other roommate called a meeting, and when I brought up my concerns, they were mostly ignored as I had to listen to a tirade about how terrible her past was and how things this semester and how she resorted going back to things (like smoking) that broke the rules at the apartment. When I talked to the landlord, he didn't want to help me leave, all he wanted to hear was evidence that he could evict her. When I learned that she was going to be evicted I knew that I had to get out, so I did. That girl had a violent background and i believed her. I'm not a violent person, I don't fight. i was so scared because she said that if she was truly mad at me, she'd throw me on the floor. I was so scared that I had to call the cops to make my point clear that I couldn't and I didn't want to talk to her. A lot of people at that apartment lost respect for me saying I was acting like a three year old . All I wanted was not to be yelled at anymore or being ordered around to clean. I got someone evicted and I feel terrible, but she was the one who chose to break the rule and she signed a contract saying that she wouldn't smoke. I should've left the semester before, but what I would like to ask is that did I really do the right thing? I didn't go to school for apartment drama, and the landlord was unhelpful so I had to go.

Yeah, I do have to agree, I just wanted to say just bc she does this and that doesn't mean she should treat me badly. I just blurted it out on an angry impulse/ I feel bad for her, I knew that she's trying to be better and I didn't give her the trust she wanted. But I never got the trust from her end either. Arguments are hard to deal with *sigh*

You're right, thanks. And next time I get mad, I'll meditate so I can calm down. I can't talk to someone in anger, but unfortunately I can talk about someone angrily. That's not right. I'll learn how to be a better problem solver and face things calmly.