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I tend to flirt with guys, sleep/cuddle with them {no sex! >.<}, I check them out and even think not so cleanly about them even though I don't like them in a sexual way. All my guy friends call me a tease, even knowing I only like girls as lovers they still tend to forget I'm more of a lesbian. Can't really blame them though seeing as I'm getting married to a guy and everything but sexual things point me to liking guys when I don't. Thinking about that is gross. sweatdrop
I love reading guy on guy things more then the ones about girl on girl things. Normally lesbians think I'm into guys and guys think so to, so I'm confusing to everyone. I'm retrying to figure out what's going on with me, its odd liking only girls sexually then my mind randomly moves onto to guys like that and grosses me out. xd
So even my mind is confused about it all.

I kind of have a thing where I wish I had an alter-ego, one that outwardly seems very girly and feminine and one that would be more suited towards boys. Like, my hair is long as sheeeeut. And I love it. But at the same time I wish I was one of those lesbians with a Justin Bieber cut cool who looks so swaqq with fitted hoodies and high top Supras and skinny jeans. I do what I can in the sense of dress :p but then sometimes I wish I could wear sundresses and have my hair braided and frolic through fields and be glittery and have it glint off the sunlight. Hahaha. I like dressing more boyish. But there are situations in which I wish I did dress girly :p but I like the mix of it that I have nao.

Also... I like video games about superheroes and apocalypses and cool shtuff like that cool I can basically beat any song on Guitar Hero on expert on any instrument, I freakin love post-hardcore music like Dance Gavin Dance (I am obsessed) I swam on the swim team in high school, I play the drums, I like building/creating things and math and science... lol I don't know how many feminine traits I have. I like to write a lottttt and I'm good at taking care of children (I don't always like that but it makes me $$$$) haha. Also I'm a tutor in college for French. Teaching/tutoring is alright. I like learning languages but idk if that is feminine or masculine :p I don't know. I'm just me I like what I like and dislike what I dislike and idk the reason behind a lot of it hehe

All my friends while studying abroad would say to me: "Colleen, you really don't seem gay." Um, thank you? sweatdrop Admittedly, as I'm getting older I'm starting to dress in a way that's more feminine rather than my old method of "does this t-shirt smell? ...guess I'm wearing this!"
I'm kind of domestic? I mean, I hate cleaning but I love cooking and painting and rearranging furniture and knitting and s**t.
But then at the same time I've logged 150 hours on Skyrim and I want to join the rugby team this semester.
I guess the least "gay" thing I do is watch the Style network or HGTV... but I only do that with my brother. Who is also a raging homo. I feel that kind of negates the "straight" quality of it.