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So once more I find myself confused, thinking too deeply and cause in a tough place. There's this girl I like (yea I like guys and girls) and I mean reaaaally like, problem is she lives so far away. I mean Alberta, Canada to Virginia, USA is quite the distance. We really connected though I guess, she's in love with me, a fact we aren't too shy about anymore, I love her, in a friendly way and maybe even more. I don't want an online relationship though, I've tried it once and I hate it, can't stand it, looking back I feel like it was a mistake. Not to mention I felt it was too soon, we knew too little about each other deeply and looking back... the flirting was nice yes, but part of my decision at the time was he was so depressed and feeling hopeless in the relationship department. With her it's so much more, we talk about everything and I've made it clear I won't rush into anything, not sure I've been clear I don't think I want an online relationship. I do however want to give it a try between us, when we can be face to face. I have learned from watching my mother in her relationships one thing I've learned is you will only know for sure if you meet them. I mean hell we've met one, he was an a**, there's a chance with this guy and who knows it just might work out. He's even willing to move here to give it a chance.

Anyways... the problem is I haven't truly considered a huge thing. So I have finally made friends in the city and I guess I have 4 friends cause the one guy introduced me to the rest. So me and they guy met all because our moms are friends from high school and they moved back to the city this year. Of course we liked some of the same stuff so they thought we'd be great friends and we are. Like he's pretty much one of my best friends and I only met him in late October. I mean our moms (to me at least) have mentionedd that we'd be best friends and/or start dating. But that's mom talk, so I didn't even give it a second thought. Of course my best friend teased me about when I went to the movies with him once (not a date to clairify), but that's what best friends do so once more I didnt actually give it much thought wise. Yesterday however it was his birthday party so we were outside walking and me and one of his friends ended up walking alone while the rest of them were walking farther away. He nudged me and asked about me and my friend. I was a little confused, and asked what about us and yes I'm an idiot and he gave up before I could fully realise that he was asking if we had anything more than friends going on. I never really thought about it, but I guess that's what people do think, but I don't ever think about it. I am not the kind of girl guys like... like ever. Not in real life I guess I should say.

So I don't know until now I have never even considered... what until the 4+ years until I even have a chance at meeting my girl? I mean... what about dating? She's told me, I'm the last person she will ever fall for and that she has no interest in dating people fro there. Will I want to try a real relationship? I am scared to talk about it with her because the abslute last thing I want is to hurt her. Though at the same time, should I hold back from what comes my way in life? Should I talk about it with her?

Also... should we decide dating other until we can give it a chance for real and should out of all odds the guy actually likes me and asks me out... what should I do? I value the friendship we have so much that I'm afraid if we do give dating a try that well it will ruin the friendship we have. Which I don't want at all. So I don't know what I would do if it happens. What should I do?

Thank you~
With my girl I did at some point work up the courage to talk about it, it does come up still once in a while I guess but we've come to the agreement on the matter and she understands I won't be in an online relationship and so it'll have to wait.