Jade Toter
Please excuse the bad spelling/grammer I'm still a little excited. Anyways I was just hit by a bus. Very gently but still hit. Now the thing is aside from the energy pumping through me right now I don't feel anything. I'm not scared or anything. And even when it happened all I did was scream at the driver who I think s**t his pants. But the thing is... shouldn't I feel scared or something? The hell?
Oh WOW! What an event! Thank God you're alright
smile &, no, you're not messed up at all. Everybody responds differently to events that are typically considered scary, traumatic, upsetting, &/or dangerous. Nobody reacts the right way in response, & nobody reacts the wrong way... They just
react. That's all.
Additionally, it's much more common for people to respond to frightening, bothersome events by feeling more or less nothing. After I got in the car wreck that changed my life forever in so many ways, everybody expected me to be absolutely terrified of being in a car - particularly the front passenger seat, since I'd gone through the windshield in the wreck - during the months following the accident. However, I had absolutely NO fear or anxiety about being in a car or sitting in the front seat or anything like that at
any point in time whatsoever. Like you, I felt as though it was somehow "wrong" of me to not be traumatized by my car accident in that particular way. So for months I sort of pretended to be afraid of riding in cars & refused to sit in the front seat, claiming I was "scared".
I've actually NEVER told ANYBODY that story before in my life.
The point is, though, you're NOT messed up at ALL. Your response to that event doesn't make you any different than you were the day before it happened. The only thing it possibly signifies is that you likely have a tendency to some degree to be able to remain calm & "keep your cool" when faced with challenges. & that's awesome.