Take a deep breath before reading my post, it is a lot to process. I would like to talk about peoples' hearts and the roots of Halloween.
First, I have been under conviction by the Lord before. It doesn't feel good. However much good comes out of it. If your heart is being weighed on by God, that is called
"Holy Spirit Conviction" God does this so we grow more than usual, and walk closer to Jesus. It is a good sign of your relationship with Jesus so I praise him in what he is doing in your life!
First pray this question: Lord, what are you trying to tell me about Halloween and where would you like my heart to be regarding it?
1 Corinthians 6:2
Do ye not know that the saints shall judge the world? and if the world shall be judged by you, are ye unworthy to judge the smallest matters?
"Judge the world" the world means society, systems, standards, lifestyles and such, not where some other peoples' hearts are in their hypocrisy and lack of humility to look at other people<-- never mind that a different conversation.
Halloween is different for each person celebrating it based on what their heart agrees and disagrees with. Your heart with bible study and prayer to Jesus will be right even for holidays like Halloween. ^-^
There are evils in Halloween HOWEVER, omit the things that God doesn't like, and enjoy the other side of it that he does approve of.
Origins of Halloween in different culturesSee Halloween is different for everyone. What things does God approve of on Halloween? You can have an approved holiday by God, so study your bible of the things God does like! Like pumpkins, creepy music, odd food, trick-or-treating costumes! There are many to choose from, maybe avoid the serial killer ones because of the ten commandments?
Also study things God doesn't like and see his side of why the doesn't like certain things. Such as evil, occultism, and tampering with the dead, demons, murder and all those yucky things.
Make your own Halloween with the answers God gives you! It is ok what you are going through, your heart is going to be beautiful, and the human heart sure does go through a lot, but it is still beating, so we have to give our hearts true credit for doing our best for Jesus!
Some Verses On The Heart