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So I'm not sure what forum this belongs in so I'm putting it here until I'm told what forum it should be in.
Okay so I understand what the meaning of pansexual, bisexual, asexual and that stuff, but I'm kinda confused by what my own sexuality maybe. If anyone asks I'll will say what sort of people I'm attracted to but only if someone asks.

I'll admit that I'm kinda scared as to what I will do to come out.
I once brought up that there was a lesbian couple at my school. My dad made a comment that made the rest of the night sorta awkward for me (Again if someone asks I'll say what he said). My friend even said that she finds the concept of two guys kissing each other sorta of weird but did not out right say she's homophobic. And when one day my dad was joking around with me and since I am unsure of my sexuality I said I was asexual. He asked what it was and I said that it meant to feel no attraction to either sex. He didn't look to happy about it. sweatdrop

Kinda funny since I've noticed that I like people who are either older or younger than me, slightly effeminate men or slightly butch(? Not exactly the term but I can't think of anything to describe the type.) women. I'm starting to think I lean towards pansexual due to the fact I could care less if they're hermaphrodites or had a sex change or cross dress and things like that. Since there is no one I like that at my school this is a guess but I spent about an hour thinking about it.

My friends I guess would accept me. I know at least one would.When I told her about New York legalizing gay marriage she was like "Yay New York. ....does our state have gay marriage?" I still have yet to look that up. My friends and I all agreed that we liked each other and got along because we were different from the other people in our school so I think nothing much will change.

Coming out at all is what scares me. I have a terrible fear of judgment that I don't even speak loud enough that people hear me when I'm sitting right next to them. I'm not sure if my father will accept but I think he will get over it. I guess I'm just going to have to find out. sweatdrop I have a bit of a habit of just blurting out whatever I want to say so I might end up doing that. >.<

Ya. At this point I'd say I'm pan.

I told one of my friends. The one I mentioned above. She said it was my life and I make the decisions and stuff. Nothing changed. Now that leaves my family and three friends. One of which is terrible at keeping secrets.

Welp. He can suck it. You are what you are, and he should love you no matter what.