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 Posted: Wed Aug 31, 2011 11:21 pm
So... it's not often I REALLY crush on anyone. Well.. crush on anyone to the point of where you're actually hopeful. There was only the one time that I liked my bf-not-f and dated her after having been friends for yeeaars. Then there was a girl I liked quite a bit (but I had met her on Gaia AND was on the other side of the country)... But that's about it.
I met this current girl at my workplace... she was hired about two weeks after me. It's.. really a new experience for me. I'm crushing on her hard. She's cute in both appearance and personality. She's silly and sweet... such charming eyes, she has - and a sexeh deeper (nothin' too deep, though) voice (obby. xD). But I have no gaydar. So even though her mannerisms tend to be a bit boyish (but her appearance is a little past towards being in the middle of boyish and girly), I have no clue if she's even interested in girls. And even my lesbian coworker with the decent gaydar can't peg her sexuality.
There's another problem. K (the girl I'm crushing on) is often scheduled to work as the arcade cashier during the night shift or at the pool/pool cashier during the day... while my shifts are always opposite to hers or barely even overlap. I RARELY see her. I seriously get to see her for MAYBE five minutes a week - probably less since it's been weekS now. She doesn't have Facebook like my other coworkers and I'd feel odd to randomly ask for her cell number. >___>
Extra info: About two weeks ago was the last time I really got to see her for a good amount of time... I was running the lazer tag region of the arcade for hours straight, alone (usually only one person is assigned to that, after all). But she walked in and said that she'd cover for me since I'd been stuck in there for a while. ...But then she added this whole, "..So you can go outside (meaning the main arcade area) if you want... though I don't think there's much to do out there (meaning it was slow in the arcade and I'd be stuck cleaning, probably - and thus being bored). ..Or you can stay with me, here." ...I sssooo wanted to think that she added the part about how I'd probably have nothing to do outside just to convince me to stay with her. She so needs me. <3 ..Kidding. I'm not that confident. >.> But yeah. I ended up staying in there with her... I felt so dumb, haha. In an almost puppy love like thing - so innocent and happy. The customers probably thought we were nuts since we'd occasionally laugh, look at each other and just grin. xD; Also between groups of customers... we'd tease each other back and forth when alone. Which... I tend to tease just in a friendly way. But sometimes I hit a level of teasing to where it's mild flirting. And I... well. When she'd tease, back, and nudge me and stuff... I'm always hopeful that she's "flirting" back.. but she's probably not.
More Extra Info: There have been a few times that our female workers tried ranting about cute boys to us.. but she never joins in. There was even one time that our friend was all, "These guys are so cute... you need to see them when they come in. <3" but K would just smile and shrug without saying much. Not interested in men? Already has a boyfriend? Just doesn't like boy chats? Again, dunno what to think. Oh, and my lezzy coworker's gf joked that she thought K enjoyed her gf's dancing on her just a bit too much (when they went clubbing one night after work... I didn't go, though, since I was feeling sickly and tired among other issues). ...GAYNESS? Who knows.
And so there is my rant. I apologize for the wall, but.. I wanted to put in what I could. >.<
So what do you guys think? Possible gayness? Or at least bisexual-ness? And. What should I do? Is there even much I can do without seeming mildly creepy..?
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Posted: Fri Sep 09, 2011 9:35 am
I get what you mean about never having crushes, i didn't have a first crush until i was 17, and had no idea what to do about it >,< Umm, my suggestion would just be to try and talk to her more, and then casually give her your number or ask for hers. And once you guys start talking more you can again casually bring up gays, and how she feels about them, and if her response is good then you can mention that your gay, or that you like girls, and see where it goes from there.
And if you ever stress out about texting her or talking to her, what helped me was to just think about what i was going to say, and ask myself if it was something i would talk to a normal new friend about, ex: how they feel about gays and such. >--<
From how you described her it sounds like a pretty big possibility that shes gay =3
But yea, thats pretty much what i did to woo my first crush and current gf >__< Although where both horribly shy, so it took us about nine months to finally get together. Hopefully you can get faster results lol.
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Posted: Tue Sep 13, 2011 1:24 am
@shares_stomach_acid (XD) - Thanks a ton for responding to this. ;w; I thought I was going to have to be solo with my problem, like usual. I do have one good friend that could give me advice, but LGBT groups tend to be excellent to go to with stuff like this, usually. xD;
I've already seen that K's gay-friendly... she knows that we have one lesbian coworker and another guy that works with us is gay - she doesn't display any discomfort or anything and is very friendly... especially if she seemed to enjoy having our lesbian coworker dance on her. xD I don't know if she knows that I'M gay, though. Since... my lezzy coworker was talking to me and asking me if I had fun at the recent Pride event while K was right there and acknowledging everything/following the conversation. BUT.. I could have went as a LGBT-friendly supporter, y'know? From her point of view... she may not know whether I'm actually gay or not. I want to make it a little more clear, but I don't want to seem odd for pushing the fact on her, lol. xD;
I try to do that, too. ;D The considering whether it would be something I'd bring up with new friends or not - it's so helpful. >-< ..I hope she's gay. u wu I'd be a happy camper... The other day, though, I had a dream she was indeed gay. 8D ...BUT SHE HAD A GIRLFRIEND. D8 Horrible. Dream. Ahem, anyways. So I got to see her Monday afternoon at work for a bit.... but it felt so shortlived. :< She started to try and talk to me (work stuff, but I think everything counts. ;D). Basically she just started to say how her fingers hurt from all the zip-tying she had to do, but our boss interrupted and was all, "GO WASH YOUR HANDS." ...Then she went on break and I didn't see her for the rest of her shift. D: I was hella bummed. Maybe I can try talking to her more on Wednesday. I'll only get to work with her for one hour, however... I'LL HAVE TO MAKE IT COUNT. >8C AND DO SOME WOOING OF MY OWN.
xD
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