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✖ Dear diary~ You are a new one! Because... Lucas accidentally drowned my other one. Yeah don't ask. It's a new year and I'm already fifteen. Things are as busy as ever... See mom and dad decided to go move closer to the law firm to handle things, but with Chris and Cassie already moved out I didn't have any other option but to go with them. Luckily Ellie decided to stay with me! But if anyone asks it's the other way around.

Speaking about Ellie... she's much better since... Rune was born. It's been three years now... since everything changed. Ellie became a mom, she's studying like crazy and she met some friends. She's in a good place. Me on the other hand... I'm helping out more. I'm Ellie's personal babysitter, well Rune's. I don't mind, the kid's great. And well... not like I have many people to hand out with... Conor left the island a few years back... and my best friend left the island with his parents for vacation. I should go see who's at the island these days...

I did go to the cooking festival... saw a panda man... How was a panda competing I don't-the mayor. Well that explains it.

✖ Ha! Success! I managed to get Ellie out and into the goddess festival. I don't get what was the big deal about it? I mean she won once, and it was fun so... Well I can't really blame her since that guy. But point is, she won! With Yoakim too... Kade was a mess but he's always a mess. I spent the festival going after Rune. She decided to hide behind some guy's leg but... I think I knew him. Maybe I'm just imagining things... He had a foul mouth, and I think I'd remember someone like that.

There was also a treasure hunt... and my team sucked horribly. First off, we didn't get the clues right away. Then the boys decided to drop the hunt and go to one of their house and panty raid it... Why? They're boys! Una did help me out... but we ended up alone at the beach cave and lost. Well in a weird way it was fun... and I did meet new people. So, it's a win? Yeah it's a win.

✖ I can't believe this! Lucas is back! Oh thank the goddess because I was going crazy here by myself! So to celebrate~ We were going to spend beach day together... but I we had a little detour planning that. I got a call from the police station... from... Conor... to bail him out. Honestly I couldn't believe that was him. Lucas was complaining all the way, declaring this was a bad idea. I almost listened to him, until I did enter and I saw him. Turns out he was the guy from the goddess festival. ...he really has changed... He's cuter. I, uh... didn't write that. Anyways he was caught with weed... so he asked me to get his bail money. I did, I mean it was Conor. Well him and the guy from the treasure hunt, the only non panty raider. Seems they go way back. But I don't think he liked me... Lucas is worried as usual.

✖ Ah! The beach day happened! We came with Ellie and Rune... and I stumbled with Conor. He's... I can't believe he's back. Lucas was right on the defensive but... he was Conor's target growing up, so I don't blame him. Though I wish he would just give him a second chance. But he didn't... so they ended up competing in the swimming contest. That Conor actually won. Lucas got a cramp and he almost drowned... which was odd since he's a really good swimmer. Aside from Lucas almost drowning... it was a nice day. Conor left before the fireworks happened... but it was really good to see him again. I missed him.

✖ NOBODY. MENTION. VALENTINE'S DAY. EVER.

Okay maybe I'm exaggerating a bit... it wasn't that bad. A new kid arranged the whole activity. I hope the others had more fun than me. My date was Neil... this reporter from the newspaper. It was... oh it sucked. He talked SO frigging much! How was that even possible!? He beat me! The whole date he was rambling on about conspiracies and goddess knows what. He apparently believes I'm a murderer... Or was it a drug addict? No wait child murderer! Ah... maybe it was a combination of all of them... oh damn that was horrible... His mouse was cute though. Only upside of the date... I couldn't even eat my food! He was convinced I was trying to poison him! Oh... damn it... I probably should've if I could.

✖ The tomato festival was awesome! Lucas and me teamed up like usual. I think I saw Conor there too... and his friend Keith. Yeah, because Lucas was really angry that they got him... so I was fighting alone from the start basically. There were a lot of teams... but there was only one I needed to take down. The Cantatas! Oh that huge guy! Lorenzo was it? DAMN HIM! He just wouldn't die!! Tomato after tomato! You'd think something that huge would have trouble dodging! Oh and I'm sure taking out tables was against that rule that pansy dude! BUT I got him! I took him out! Sure the other girl took me out after... I got him!!! YEAH!!! It was fun~

Now... a few days later took a walk right? Ellie gave me the day off so I headed to the fields. To my surprise... I found Conor there. We talked for a while but um... we picked the most horrible time to talk because I missed the mini-hurricane alert. And we were outside when it happened. He took me to the ruins where we waited it out. The damn thing lasted a few hours, so... As crazy as the whole surviving a hurricane event was... it was nice to spent time with Conor like that. I missed him... a lot... He left so suddenly those years ago... that I was at him. I had no way of knowing... and I think I blamed him for it. Course now that we talked that's not the case... I still think he's pretty cute... am I crushing or something? Nah... He's just an old friend... and Lucas is crazy to say otherwise.

Also I lost my glasses at the fields... so... I'm not blind as a bat but still... I need to get new ones... though Conor did say I look better without them...

✖ School started... and it was really really f---- up... Our old principal was arrested, in the middle of his speech no less, for being a *****? Not that he didn't give that vibe. He was always commenting on my skirts... and there was this girl grinning about how she had sex with someone older and how awesome it was a few years back. Her parents didn't do anything but applaud her so... maybe she had been one of his... Yeah... Well the new principal... scares the hell out of me. She changed everything about the school. I don't think this will be a very good year really.

Finally, the art festival came up. I had been so excited about my compositions! I've been working on them for a while now. But in the end I decided to bring my cello. Ellie had been a little weird lately... I don't know why... But she was glued to her paintings which had a theme. A Yoakim theme... Hm hm, hint hint. Anyways, this guy came over criticizing everything about my playing. Well I'm not perfect but dude! A little subtlety is nice... It was a good festival so...

Lastly... there was also the masquerade. THAT was horrible. Bloody and horrifying doesn't even begin to cover it! I was just expecting a nice time. Well firstly I wasn't even invited... stupid Alanis... but Lucas was, so he took me as his date. Ellie was invited, and she looked wonderful.... she seemed to be thinking on something. Something she did but I'll tell you later. Now right in the middle of Lucas and me dancing... all hell broke loose! Oh... It was a massacre! As if it wasn't enough to be locked in there with so many bodies, Lucas fainted on me! Next to a lynx! Well it was dead but that wasn't the point! I... I need therapy... I do... I don't really know what happened, but I don't want to know. We're alive... that's what matters.

About Ellie... I lost her at the start of the masquerade... I was worried sick when I didn't see her when all hell broke loose. But they didn't find her body, so the worst case scenario was out. When I went home with Lucas I got my answer. She left the island with Rune and Yoakim. THEY ELOPED! I couldn't believe it at first... but then I was just glad it finally happened. Yoakim was crushing on her for a looooong time. I could tell that. But I had my doubts on Ellie, I mean after her... and with her being shy I just thought she didn't like him that way. They were best friends... but so was Lucas and me before we dated for a bit. There was something I was thinking about later... Kade. As far as I knew, Yoakim was dating so... I don't know what happened there. Well Ellie's happy. My parent's weren't... and now I'm alone at home. After what happened at the masquerade the hell I'm staying alone! So for now I'm crashing at Lucas'. Oh what few days... who said this island was boring? Obviously they don't live here.

✖ Finally something fun! The pumpkin festival came by~ I was dying to get out of the house for something like it. Well Lucas' house since I'm staying with him. To be fair I had left once of twice and stumbled across Conor... Conor~ Anyways, Lucas and I decided to do a little bet... turns out I lost, damn it, and had to let him choose my outfit for the festival. Which is why I regret grabbing that maid's outfit from Cassie's closet a few years back... so he made me wear that and it felt slutty... He assured me it didn't, but I didn't buy it. We had a nice time though... I kept imagining his face was the pumpkin's~

Then came my birthday... which was crazy. Since I was staying with Lucas, he wanted to go to the pool. I didn't really want to, it's winter after all. There was someone at the door that day... Conor. Though they argued like idiots... Lucas let him in, and he made me this drink... which I ended up drunk. I knew it was vodka but it was... shut up I got drunk and... I kissed him... After that it's a little fuzzy... since Cam got home and... it didn't end well.

✖ Well Lucas and I finally decided to go school... We had been avoiding it since the masquerade... and what we got to wasn't helping much. Presenting... porn day! What was going through Alanis' mind I don't know. But that was just plain creepy. The posters... the videos... the stands... the lollipops... that was just wrong. Lucas was completely humiliated by that video... Looks like Alanis kidnapped Frank S. and made him do it... The b***h... I saw Kade there too... which doesn't make sense. We didn't talk much, I figured it would be awkward but he seems to be in denial... must be why he adopted that kid and named him... yeah...

Oh yes! My stocking day gift~ I got some summer flowers! They're so pretty!

Also I went to that white day bidding thing. I had fun... and made Lucas sign up for bidding! But I won a 20 something year old guy. He was nice and all but... not exactly my age... and not who I wanted to get... I thought it was Conor... We had a nice time... unlike Lucas who is still traumatized. He said he would take that to his grave... Weird...

✖ I knew I was liking Conor... Why else would I have kissed him on my birthday? Then... came New Year's. I wasn't really thinking that night. I wanted to spend some time with him but one thing led to another and we were making out on a bench... So...A... If Lucas found out he'd kill me but... I really like Conor... I think I have for a while... It would explain why I was so mad at him for leaving back then. But... I need to talk to him... though making out is not that bad.

So... I changed things up a bit. I'm moving back to my house, and I got rid of the glasses. Now... we'll see what this year brings.

✖ So I really didn't have a chance to write down on this thing... It's been really really... is there a word for it?

So I... I was something with Conor. I mean he was living with me and... stuff... -love you journal but there are even some things I won't tell you- It was pretty good though. We were heading to the festivals together, and we even went to the Treasure Hunt. Sure neither of us actually won but... actually that one was pretty weird. Keith kept glaring at me. At least until he came home one day completely high... We had a bad fight... I should've just locked him in one room and leave him there but... I just told him to leave. And he did... I found a note from him... but nothing else.

I was pretty down those days. Not even Lucas could really help. Then...He came over and said Conor was dead... I ended up in the hospital... I was really stupid. It was my fault...

Ps. That doctor should burn in hell... EVIL. He said something about him but... I don't... I don't wanna know.

Now I have Ellie and Yoakim living over here. I don't really mind, actually I needed that. It was getting lonely... now I have Rune and Will bouncing around. Oh yeah, Ellie has a kid... You'd think I would've known.

✖ Why do things keep sucking more?

The art festival came by, but I didn't do much there aside from following Lucas. I wasn't in the mood for it. He however was looking at the she-devil too much... Weird...

School's not fun. I flunked art... though with how much school Lucas and I missed it's probably not that bad. But we came to all the major things... he passed fine but I think it's all that harpy's fault! She thought of career week and... that was horrible! I was put with KADE! And... he chopped my hair! Now it's pink! ...Okay it's not THAT bad, but it's so short! Lucas says it's better than before since I wasn't caring for it. What? Those meds make me not give a damn. But STILL!

...Conor... wasn't dead after all...

✖ I'm not going to talk about Conor... Aside from the fact he's alive and we're engaged... Which no one is really happy about. All right so I will talk about him... I mean I love him, but things just keep getting wrong. Right when we were fine, he was acting strange and then he was doing drugs. Not to mention he left so... What if everyone's right? Lucas almost blew a gasket when I told him. I'm not wrong though... Least I don't think I am. Dammit I can choose for myself! Everything will be fine! I know it will! ...Maybe not. I really can't help but worry. It's not like I haven't seen him much these days so, I can worry. What if something happened to him? What if Yoakim killed him? He was really mad. REALLY. MAD. About the whole thing last season... Well I missed him so... things got out of hand... Maybe everything's getting out of hand... Nah, I'm just thinking too much. It'll be fine...