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Have confidence in yourself. I actually thought it was quite good, although you probably had a different mental picture of what you wanted. One of the hardest lessons I have learned was taught to me by a college classmate. Her head actually only came to my chest, was maybe 8-9" shorter, but I always thought of her as being my height.

Right before I moved in, someone else left without notice and left behind an old canvas plus 3 tubes of blue/red/yellow acrylic paint. My friend put the canvas on the floor, squirted globs of all 3 paints on it, and walked on it. Then she called it a footing. It satisfied a triple purpose. Burnt off anger, put leftovers to good use, and made quite a lovely painting - it looked like a bonfire...

Allow yourself to learn. If your expectations are too narrow, you will only limit what you can do. Learn from what you do, do not expect an exact result from a mental image - if you get that, fine, but do leave the door open...that is what I learned from my friend.