So here I am
Not so much in a place where heaven meets Earth
But where past meet future in a time called the present
I realize that my past has been pretty screwed up
but I hope and pray for a better future
Now all stories I have to tell me children,
Will be before the age of 16
I am at a comfortable age of 13 now
Already, I've seen death, I've seen suicide,
I've seen teenage pregnancies,
I've seen molestation, I have seen tears
Some of sadness, some of joy
I've seen hope be gained in lost in minutes
I've seen houses ripped from under people
I've seen war, strife, pain, and fear
I've seen love, hope, faith, and joy
I've seen miracles and supernatural events
I've seen temptations
I've seen hate
I don't want my children to see those things.
I don't want them to have to pass on curses to their children
So I'm promising myself now
That before I give birth I will say this prayer.
"God, Don't let my mistakes effect my baby.
Let all of my baggage fall away
Let me be born again, with my baby
I will be childlike in faith. So that my baby does the same
Don't let them carry a burden meant for my shoulders.
But most of all, Lord, give me the strength to birth this baby
And not break my husband's hand."
Because you see, dignity is not on my check list
I am the same person at home, church, school, everywhere
I am Chloe.
My child will not be me.
But I pray that I do my best to pass on the little wisdom I have.
I promise, to everyone who reads this,
You will see my baby, you will know my baby,
Because my baby, will do amazing things.
But first things first, I gotta find the daddy.
It's A Girl Thing! ♥
A Family, A Home.
