I'm going to hell, he'll never like me, and I feel like s**t.
I have this uber uber crush on this boy. His name is Cody.
He is "cute" by other's description, but that's not what's hooked me. He's probably the nicest person in the entire damn world. I love that.
He also lives in this state
God, I'm so ********, though. He's wonderful, I tell you, wonderful!
He's a little more than a year older than me, he'll be seventeen on the third and I'll be sixteen on the 21st of march. Not a huge age difference, but I'm afraid he sees me kind of as a little kid, which I am in some respects.
But that's not a problem, I can beat that. And it might not be what he thinks.
I was up untill 1:30 am talking to him last night, and it was a school night. I've shattered my curfew by at least an hour and a half three or four times in the past week so I could stay out with him. I've been tossing my responsibilities out just so I could see him. I'm obsessive, he's all I've been thinking about since Saturday.
And I don't mind that. That's not the problem.
"Then what is?", you ask.
Well, you don't find guys like this that are single.
He's in a long distance relationship, that's not an internet thing as far as I can tell (I never asked). In addition to being long distance it is also long term. He has his entire life planned out with her, he's going to college by her because of her. He's going to see her this friday, she lives in Seattle. And all I want is for them to get into a huge ********' fight and break up. And that just makes me want to cry. I don't want to wish him the pain of a break up. I don't want to end up trying to cause one. I don't wanna be a selfish b***h that tries to interfear because I like him. I don't want to be like that! But it seems that I am.
I don't know what to do. I'm sorry Cody, I'm sorry I want you to break up with her. I'm a terrible person and it's been killing me. I wish I could just get over this infatuation, because it's awful.
But then again, I don't want to stop liking him so much.
I suppose I just sound like a crazy teenage girl. I'm sorry for that too. He's just too perfect. What am I supposed to do?
I have this uber uber crush on this boy. His name is Cody.
He is "cute" by other's description, but that's not what's hooked me. He's probably the nicest person in the entire damn world. I love that.
He also lives in this state
God, I'm so ********, though. He's wonderful, I tell you, wonderful!
He's a little more than a year older than me, he'll be seventeen on the third and I'll be sixteen on the 21st of march. Not a huge age difference, but I'm afraid he sees me kind of as a little kid, which I am in some respects.
But that's not a problem, I can beat that. And it might not be what he thinks.
I was up untill 1:30 am talking to him last night, and it was a school night. I've shattered my curfew by at least an hour and a half three or four times in the past week so I could stay out with him. I've been tossing my responsibilities out just so I could see him. I'm obsessive, he's all I've been thinking about since Saturday.
And I don't mind that. That's not the problem.
"Then what is?", you ask.
Well, you don't find guys like this that are single.
He's in a long distance relationship, that's not an internet thing as far as I can tell (I never asked). In addition to being long distance it is also long term. He has his entire life planned out with her, he's going to college by her because of her. He's going to see her this friday, she lives in Seattle. And all I want is for them to get into a huge ********' fight and break up. And that just makes me want to cry. I don't want to wish him the pain of a break up. I don't want to end up trying to cause one. I don't wanna be a selfish b***h that tries to interfear because I like him. I don't want to be like that! But it seems that I am.
I don't know what to do. I'm sorry Cody, I'm sorry I want you to break up with her. I'm a terrible person and it's been killing me. I wish I could just get over this infatuation, because it's awful.
But then again, I don't want to stop liking him so much.
I suppose I just sound like a crazy teenage girl. I'm sorry for that too. He's just too perfect. What am I supposed to do?