CalledTheRaven
And again they show interest in me that I'm not sure I'm comfortable with. Last ritual had Oshun throwing a tantrum because I was apparently not open for possession. Not sure what to make of that.
Huh. Maybe just me, but I'd be asking if it's really Oshun. I realize you work with and trust these people, but it may be more on them, than the Loa, that they're trying to draw you further into their group. It may not be, but I have seen it happen before. I hope it's nothing dodgy.
But assuming it's all on that level... If you don't want to open yourself to them, then don't. We have the right to refuse them. Your friends shouldn't allow you to be horsed unwillingly. If it's increasingly an issue, I think your best option might be to walk away from the situation. Not easy.