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The beating of my heart has slowed.
My vision is hazy,
Senses are dulled.
And I lay here,
Thinking
of
you.

I am not high.
I am not drunk.
I am tired.
I am sad.

And I am alone.

I think;
We are not the same.
I think;
Things cannot go back to the way they were.
I think;
You cannot read me like a book anymore.
I think;
Could you ever, really?

I can still hear my heart beating.
Thump.Thump.Thump.
Ouch.
Help.
I`m still breathing.
Why am I still breathing?

I think;
If you could read me so well, you`d know that I am not okay right now.
I think;
Time moves much too slow when you`re not around.
I think;
Just close your eyes, girl, and go to sleep.

My eyes are closed.
My head is hurting.
My heart is still beating.
Thump.Thump.Thump.

And I remember.
I still remember everything you said.
I still remember how easily I fell for it.
For you.
I still remember the night after hearing her ask me why,
I still remember that I do not know why.

I can still feel the heart that was once so
very
alive
and
so
very
mine
Begin to slow.
From
Thumpthumpthumpthumpthumpthump in a minute,
To Thump.Thump.Thump in a minute.
It`s still beating like that.

I think;
It`s still beating.
I think;
I`m still breathing.
I think;
Why am I still breathing?