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I accepted christ about 6 years ago, I've been raised in a christian home and that entails {church, youth group, etc.}. But about 3 years my best friend and I did some stuff {bad stuff}. And, well, I felt really guilty about it, but I didn't stop although I said I would. Just recently {as of two weeks ago to be precise} I was promoted to chaplin {one of the highest positions} in my rotc unit {Reserve Officer Training Corps} and i saw this as an oppurtunity and a way of God telling me to make a major u-turn. You see, I don't shirk responsability. If I say I will catch you when you fall, I will be there to catch you no matter what the cost is. I think God has used this trait to really try and bring me back, or to give me a sign, a heads up, whatever you want to call it. As chaplin I have to be knowledgable on the word of God {which I have been my entire life} but not only that, I have to put it in to practice, to be an example.

I've changed my mind, I'll tell you what my problem was: sex. It's a big problem. I'm really trying to change. I've been saying I'd do it, and have been putting it off. But now that I'm in a leadership position, I can't afford to put it off any longer, not that there are others at stake. It's one thing to mess up my own life, another to risk messing up others. I'm not willing to shirk my duties. Please pray for me. It's been really hard trying to change my old habits: the music I listen to, language, my personal life. I'm making a completly u-turn, attempting at least. Please pray for me, I need to find the passion I had.

I know what you mean by have sex a problem. God has not yet shown me what to do although I have not yet asked but my boyfriend is asking and it hurts me to know he wants us to change but he does not seem as concerned as I am. God has given you a leardship postition in something it sounds like you enjoy. I just keep running into trouble. I am not sure what to do and I am affraid if I do what my boyfriend asks and get my own place I will lose him. We both are Christians even though for the past year we have lived together. He took me in after I left my grandmother's. She and I did not have the same ideas on how I should live my life.
Is it wrong to want to be with a man you love???? I am affraid God does not hear me because I live with my boyfriend and if that is it, then how can I fix it when I do not have a job but go to school full time and work at the church on Sundays once every two months. Please pray for me.