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 Posted: Sat Nov 06, 2004 7:25 am
November 6, 2004
This is Jen writing... I've done a lot since this was last written in ... and to be honest it was my Mom, Keppit, who did all the writing.... and I'm thinking that since I'm now a big strong strapping adult Skull Monkey that I can take care of my own journal... and I can... Um...give me a second to read back over all the things that my Mom has written and then I'll add what I think needs added......
Ok.. so she missed me in a couple of her descriptions so I'll start by describing me... the me that I know I am.... I'm a plain brown adult Sm with plain brown markings... I spent all my my childhood working out and lifting weights so I'm pretty buff and very muscular, besides that I was always a little big for my age... My only friends throughout my entire life were Diro (who I havenae seen since we were just babies) , Wuto (whom I also havenae seen in a long time), Banda (whom I never see beacuse I avoid Isto), and Isto.... The one that I avoid... Long story short... I have no friends...
All throughout my life My friends have always been boys... I just dinnae get along with girls and besisdes everytime that I'm around them I just get this funny feeling in my stomach like I'm going to be ill... So I just figured that I must be gay... and I think that's what I am... unfortunately I fell in love with Isto... I really admired him and loved to be around him... and I was resigned to life without love because as far as I knew Isto wasnae gay... he was in love with Mauli.... but as it turns out, Isto is gay... but he doesnae see me.... I'm just little brown normal Jen... I'm happy for Isto I really am... and now not only does he get Slush and a love life.... and a life really... but Mauli just had his child... he has a complete family now... and I envy that.
I'm thinking about maybe going on a trip... Mom wants to give me the cabin... but I dinnae want it... it's here silly house... I dinnae know what she was thinking living in a one room cabin and all... she's got the Floppi Center which is a giant three story house with about a million bedrooms... and instead she and Gus and I all live in the Cabin... she sleeps on the bed in the main floor area and both Gus and I have Lofts up in the rafters... There's a third loft.. it's a little bigger... but right now it's full of Mom's stupid puppet supplies... I tried my hand at making puppets once... it's fun but I wonnae turn it into a living...
Ok so that's it for now, since I havenae got that much to say here, and talking about myself tends to make me a little depressed.... I'll get back to thise later... I Promise....
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Posted: Sun Nov 14, 2004 10:31 am
My mother sent me to the hospital to say congradulations to Mauli...
I dinnae know what she's playing at... she knows that I dinnae feel comfortable around Mauli... and she knows that Isto isnae comfortable around me... and she knows that I dinnae like hospitals... but my Mom's a zombie now... and they wonnae let her into the hospital... so I get to go instead...
Mauli and Isto's child is a beautiful girl named Kailee... and I fear that if I write down anymore about her then I'll cry again... it's enough for me to say that Mauli gave me the chance to be a breif part of something that I would never otherwise have a chance to be a part of... albeit that the part I played was that of a momentary spectator...
I wish that I was as strong as Isto... and as brave.... But unfortunatley... I'm not strong. I'm not brave. I'm not unique in any way...........................................................I'm not desireable...
I can live with that. Thankyou Mauli for letting me see your child.
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Posted: Mon Jan 17, 2005 7:50 pm
I got into a fight with Gus the other day... and Mom yelled at ME! she said that I was moody and all... well I say too bad! And that I dinnae care! and that I need help....
I've made a decision. .... wait... lemme go back. I'm going to the floppi center tomorrow and I'm going to see Nell. You don't know Nell because she's a floppi. but she's also a geneticist, and I think she can help me.
I drew a picture in my random fit of boredom the other day. It was supposed to be a picture of me, but it just ended up looking like a rat.
It made me cry... and no I'm nae ashamed to write that! I'm nae a rat, no matter what anyone says, and if this life is hopeless and entirely everything less for me..... then I'm going to Nell... She has genetic potions that make the floppis into humans... well.. Noids. They're sort of humans... But I dinnae care.
Anything is better than who I am now.... even a dead Jen.
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Posted: Tue Jan 18, 2005 12:14 am
Jen goes..... Noid??? "Did you do it?"
"Of course I did... O.o .. I think highly of you Jen... but I really don't think... "
"I dinnae care what you think! Just give me the draught please."
"Ah.. now see the manners at the end of tht sentance just weren't enough to take away the sting from the beginning."
*sigh* "Nell... PLease."
"I can't Jen... I don't think it will work... I just don't know what will happen."
"It'll be better than this!!!!! I'm tired of being a brown nobody doomed to an endless life of Monkey body!!!! I dinnae have hands! A'hm short! And I dinnae like who I am!"
"I actually think you're more grey than brown... "
"Nell!"
"please don't make me do this Jen. I will if you want me to... But please."
"Nell."
"Jen...."
"This is what I want."
"You can't get anywhere like this."
"I'm not trying to get anywhere. I just want a change. That's all. I'm not trying to impress anyone.... I'm just looking for a boost of confidence."
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"Get in the chair."
"Thankyou Nell!!"
"DOn't talk to me! I hate you right now."
"and I hate you too..."
"sit still....... All you have to do is drink this... "
"I know."
"What are you waiting for?"
"I dinnae ken."
"Don't die."
"Are you gonna watch?"
"You're Damned straight I'm gonnae watch! Drink the damn draught!"
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"How do I look?"
"Naked... put this on."
"Really though."
"It's like I said before... you're grey, not really brown at all."
"You mean I'm grey?" O.o ...
"Look in the mirror."
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"Red hair.... there was no red before... "
"Who knows what there was before? You had the skull of an animal on your head!"
"Dinnae criticize!"
"Don't grin at me like that then!"
"Wait till I show Mom!"
"Your mom's gonna kill me."
"I'll keep you safe."
"Button up your shirt... you look ascinine!"
"I can't... it doesn't fit right.." XD
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Posted: Tue Jan 25, 2005 5:07 pm
My kid brother ,Gus (he's a jivvin) wants me to teach him how to fight.
See.. he's writing this book about a friend of his and him, and he wants to make it action orientated. The only prolem with that is, Gus is even more of a goody goody than I am, and as far as goody goody's go... I'm pretty close to top of the list. It doesnae work though, since I cannae fight. So I'm thinking I might ask Mauli to help Gus learn to fight. The only other person I could ask is Isto and A'hm no asking him.
I'll offer Mauli free babysitting in return... she might consider teaching the runt a thing or two then.
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