I don't know if anyone will even remember me at all, but I wanted to say that Im hoping to be around Gaia more. Since the last time I was here I got divorced. This was a really sudden thing. We were married on halloween of 2004 - and we seperated 10 days before our one year anniversary. I found out that he had slept with three seperate women while we were together, two of them were my friends - and when I talked to him about it he decided he didnt want to work things out. He wanted to seperate with me so he could persue this girl hed only known for a week. I had known him for six years and we went to high school together and everything.
We had talked about having kids, even had the name picked out and everything - so it was really hard when I had a misscarriage not long after the seperation. Ive had to deal with that mostly alone - he hasnt called me to ask if im okay or anything.
Ive lost a lot of faith, as you may understand. He had no spirituality when we first met - and he kind of got that from me. I taught him a lot about magic, and the tarot and whatnot...and when we were getting married I saw so many signs that we were supposed to be together. This has been a real shock - and one of the things that really hurt me was that he got close to this girl he left me for by showing her how to use the tarot - something I had taught him.
i spent some time wasting away, I had gained weight during that year and he told me I wasnt pretty enough for him. I used to have an eating dissorder - so its a really crummy thing for him to do knowing that and all.
Im trying to pull my life back together, but its really hard because I am at 20 years old living with my overly religious christian parents again... they think Im the devil or something.
Im hoping to get back into some sort of spirituality, some sort of studying - but its hard. I still beleive in witchcraft persay - I just dont know about the goddess or god right now...Im having a hard time forming a personal connection with diety because I feel like my life is one footfall after the other!
We had talked about having kids, even had the name picked out and everything - so it was really hard when I had a misscarriage not long after the seperation. Ive had to deal with that mostly alone - he hasnt called me to ask if im okay or anything.
Ive lost a lot of faith, as you may understand. He had no spirituality when we first met - and he kind of got that from me. I taught him a lot about magic, and the tarot and whatnot...and when we were getting married I saw so many signs that we were supposed to be together. This has been a real shock - and one of the things that really hurt me was that he got close to this girl he left me for by showing her how to use the tarot - something I had taught him.
i spent some time wasting away, I had gained weight during that year and he told me I wasnt pretty enough for him. I used to have an eating dissorder - so its a really crummy thing for him to do knowing that and all.
Im trying to pull my life back together, but its really hard because I am at 20 years old living with my overly religious christian parents again... they think Im the devil or something.
Im hoping to get back into some sort of spirituality, some sort of studying - but its hard. I still beleive in witchcraft persay - I just dont know about the goddess or god right now...Im having a hard time forming a personal connection with diety because I feel like my life is one footfall after the other!
