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*huggles* im so sorry that blows i will do anything to help yah out.

Thanks a lot Bun and IE.

I've been thinking that exact thing IE, and all of my friends and family have been telling me that too. I hope I'm able to just think that way though, instead of falling into darkness. I'm the type of person that overanalyzes everything, which often makes me more pessimistic, and there are so many open ends to the end of this relationship. I still don't even know the exact reason why. I don't know how things all of a sudden changed. I don't know how she could all of a sudden become so cold. There's nothing I can do, and I need to accept that horrible truth. It also doesn't help that I feel like she was my true love, my soulmate. I still feel that even after all of this. I just hope there's another person out there for me. I'm just going to try to work on myself as much as I can, and hopefully I won't jump in front of a bus, or, as I always thought would be a very ironic way to die, an ambulance. Thanks for your kind words and wish me luck. Knowing that there are people out there that support me makes the pain just a tiny bit more tolerable.

Yeah....I went through the same s**t, only it was a long distance relationship, problem was I rushed things, too quick. And I didnt even know this girl was, I only knew her on the internet, she lived in Illinois somethin like that, I stayed in touch with her until like April, she said she would come down here and s**t, and she never did. Unknown to me she already had a bf, and it was too late, I called her one night, and a guy answered, and told me not to call his, fiancee anymore, so I didnt, and thusfully, I gave up, on everything, I fell into a hole, and in June I realized I need to find somebody in my state, in my town, something, cuz take it from me long distance relationships...they never work out.. at least not for me. I fell hard, I was so depressed, I didnt wanna die, though. I was just angry and upset for three ******** months. And over what you might ask, well over something so stupid and so trivial, as a long distance relationship. And to be honest with ya, I dont even know what I even saw in her. It was all head belief, and not actual love, I thought I loved her sure, but like I said it was all in my head...it wasnt real. I guess I had to learn sooner or later. Hang on dude, just do what you gotta do, and dont give up. Dont fall into the darkness like I did. Only the darkness had somewhat of a reality check effect on me. It made me realize that I was weak minded. And I believed that she actually loved me, loved me? She hardly even knew me, I was a fool. And it made me realize I needed to grow out of this internet relationship bullshit sooner or later.