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Dracal had been spending some time out in the park, guarding it for various of reasons. He hadn't seen Birman in a long time and was worrying about him. Not to mention that he had still been hurting due to the breakup of his precious relationship with Nyx. He sighed, taking a night off away from the park, wanting to go and see his adopted mother. He'd heard there was another litter but wasn't sure if there was any truth to it or not.


Persy had just finished watch duty for the night and as Kieran was taking care of the kittens she decided that she would take a quiet stroll around the mansion on her own. The kits had grown up quickly and she couldn't help but feel sadness that they were starting to grow up. Now with Nyx in the university again she had none of her first litter living with her and although her second got off to a very rocky start she couldn't help but feel that she had become a much better mother to these kits then to the ones previous. This didn't stop the scars from hurting though, the scars of her first litter. How poor a mother she had been, it would never stop hurting.


Dracal's ears was moving slightly as he moved towards the mansion still. That is when he had caught her scent, perking up very slightly. He tilts his head, wondering why he'd felt the air to be different than usual. He jumped onto the branch that nearby that would help him get into the area where she would be. He did a somersault that would cause him to land kneeling down. He looked around the place once more before calling out with a soft voice. "Mother?" He lets out a small meow to try to find her. "I know you are out here.. I sense your pain, mother... "


Persys ears perked up and moved to behind her, her body on edge. She didn't have her sythe with her at the moment and the female had been increadibly jumpy ever since she had be raped all those years ago. She had been told that she would never truely get over it but Persy was a strong cat and had been trying to make sure it never ruled her life. Hemera had grown up quiet but happy and although cats often believed that she was the biological sibling of any of her other kits she was accepted. She flicked her ears carefully before perking up slight. "Dracal? Is that you?" she asked, her voice soft and quiet. She didn't want to draw attention to herself incase it wasn't.



Dracal sighs gently with an relief that she'd responded to him. "Yes it is me, Mother." He called out to her before moving quickly in the direction of her voice. "I am going to you, mom." He'd zigzags several times to get to her before coming to a complete stop. He had started to look older each day. With each day passing by, more wisdom seem to pour into the male. "..Mother.." He said gently, looking up at her. "...Mom.. What happened? This is not like you... You usually call out to me in a louder voice. You know I would never EVER hurt you." He reached up to touch her on the cheek, frowning.* "You must tell me what is going on...I know it is not Dad because he would never hurt you."



Persy smiled broadly when she saw Dracal coming towards her. It had been quite some time since she had seen the boy last and it was fantastic to see him again. She studied his face for a minute or two, noticing how much he had grown since the last time she had seen him. She then stopped and looked at him, cocking her head to the side. "What happened to me? Nothing lately. I was on watch duty before coming out for a walk so I'm still a little jumpy I suppose." she said quietly, thinking. She knew that Dracal would take something like that very poorly, him being so protective and she had told herself that she just simply had to move on from it.



Dracal shook his head towards her and moves to sit on a rock that is nearby. "Mom.. I know you. Things has happened since I have been here last." While he knew that he was not to blame for some of the things in the past but he was curious on why she was like this. "...Is it true that you had a litter?" He said while looking towards her. His long tail moved at the tip very slight. "And Mom? You may be able to fool our family.. but you know me. They don't know you as long as I have. Please.. talk to me." He pleaded slightly. "It is not right to keep it bottled up." He knew that he was probably talking to a brick wall but he had to try. The bond that he has with Persy as a mother and a kit never went away. He thought it had dissolved several times due to the troubles of his life.



Persy looked at him a little aprehesively. She didn't really want to have to speak about this again, it had been a long time ago. But Dracal cared about her and wanted to know what had happened to her. She knew it would hurt to recount it again for even though she knew that it hadn't been her fault, she still felt slightly guilty for it. To make Kieran go through it all. She looked over at a tree and sighed. "Why don't we sit down then?" she asked him quietly, with a small smile and gesturing to the tree before turning around and sitting down, her hand placed softly on her lap. She smiled softly. "Yes, yes it's true. I had a litter of three wonderful kits." she said quietly, a smile playing out on her lips even thinking about them. "They're called Hemera, Phosphor and Athena." she added, knowing that Dracal wouldn't know their names.


Dracal looked towards her and nods gently. He moved to the said tree before sitting down by her. He listened to her with great interest then smiled gently. "..Congrats, Mom. I'd hoped that you would have another litter with Dad." He looked into her eyes once more. "I would like to meet them someday. I doubt they know about me since I am not in their lives like I used to be so much in yours." He tilts his head to the sky, leaning some against the tree. "...Is Dad really the father? Forgive me for being blunt. I was worried..after.. " He closed his eyes tightly, biting his lip. "...those times." He was never told about the rape. He'd thought his mom had found someone else for awhile to try to be happy. At least that is what he'd wished. He turned to look at her. "..Has things gotten better?" He wouldn't dare speak of Nyx since he knew that she was happy and that what counts in his eyes.



Persy nodded. "You're father and I, we had our difficulties for a long time. We decided to give each other another shot though, after a long peroid of taking a break." she explained to him carefully, watching the sky, her hands still placed gently on her lap. "To tell the truth I never thought he would forgive me or that it would ever get better but then we moved in together again and had Nyx with us and everything started to feel better, more like a real family again." She then turned to Dracal, her eyes determined and strong. "Kieran is the father of...some of the kits..." Persy tried to explain, her mind awkward. She had to explain this to people before and they were always confused by it. But it could happen, if another cat had had his way with her after Kieran, which had happened. "You see Kieran and I had finally started dating again propperly and we went out for dinner and had a wonderful night. The next day I was invited for a drink in a bar, thinking that Kieran was going to meet me there. Apparently it had been a trick because Kieran never arrived and a horrid tomcat spiked my drink and...had his way with me." she explained, her voice strong despite it's softness. "Apparently I was already pregnant at that point but...one of the kits turned out to be that tomcats. When I told Kieran he went crazy and found him and...put an end to him."


Dracal frowned as he listened to her while watching the sky with her. "..I thought it would be the right time for a break after what had happened." His eyes narrowed sadly. "Mom... What the hell? It wasn't your fault... at all. I tried to tell you." He looks towards her then winced at the name of Nyx. He just moved on like she never said her name. He tilts his head towards her. "...I tried to come back but it had hurt so much because of Nyx. That is why I just had left again. I had to go back to the park, Mom.. I am second in command there." He didn't want her to know the real reason. He knew of the reason why Nyx broke up with him but never fully understood it. He tried to be there for her whenever he could. Hell.. He wanted to be a dancer just for her. He looked towards the sky once again. "Mom... I understand. You still love the kit just the same." He then smirked at what his father had did. "I would have done the same damn thing to that dude. No one messes with my family like that." He looks to the mansion as he sighs. "Mom.. Do what you want to my room. I know you still have it." He'd whispered to her. "...But just give me the chance to meet the kit.. I want to know her.. Does she know?"



Persy shook her head. "There was a lot of fault to go about Dracal. I'm older now, I've been through a lot and I've been able to look back after going through everything. It's easy to say it wasn't somehow my fault or that it was someone elses problem but it's not true. I'm to blame as well to a certain extent. We spoke about it a lot afterwards you know and although it was difficult to comprehend at the start I do accept that some of it was my fault." she said softly but strongly. She shook her head, her red hair falling around her face. "I understand Dracal. You're grown up now. You couldn't stay with your mommy for the rest of your life you know." When he spoke next she looked at him, her eyes intense. "Exactly. It doesn't matter what cat Hemera belongs to, she's our kitten and that's all that matters. Kieran feels the same. He doesn't care anymore that she's not biologically related to him." The female then shook her head, her voice low. "She doesn't know yet. She's far too young to know. She's just a kit. She knows she's different from the rest though. She can tell by how we look and how her all of her siblings look. She hasn't asked yet but when she does I'm going to tell her the truth, I suppose." Persy then smiled softly at Dracal. "Of course you can meet her, you can meet all of them if you like."



Dracal listened to her as he sighed. "I know that, Mom... But as much as I wanted to stay here... I had to be the better person." He frowned gently. "..I can't even say her name anymore without hurting." He moved slightly to fix her hair to behind her ears. "I may be grown up and got older. But you know what?" He kissed her on the cheek before giving her a soft sad smile. "I am still your little boy no matter what." He flicks his ears slightly, hearing some motions in the mansion. "I would love to meet all of them, Mom. But her.. I want to know. I want to help her since I am not blood related to all of them. " He looked down at the ground. "I got a feeling that she'll be a bit confused. But she'll still be my little sister if she wants to be." That is when he tossed a pic of him as a kitten in Persy's arms. "...Don't lose the memories, Mom.. At least the good ones." He said with a smile. "I think if you tell her that.. She'll understand. Show her that pic." He knew that he couldn't fully say what he wanted to say but at least he tried. "What is her name that is different, Mama." That is when the little boy voice came out of him. He was curious.. so very curious.


Persy looked at him a little sadly. She understood completely why Nyx had broken up with him. She had gone into great detail about it with Persy, making sure that she made the right choice at the end of the day. All the same Persy couldn't help but feel very sad for Dracal, whom she knew loved Nyx an awful lot, even now. She looked at him and smiled, kissing his forehead gently. "You'll always be my little boy." Persy listened to him, her ears twitching a little as she did. "It's a shame things couldn't be easier for her." Persy said softly. "If she didn't look so very different from them she would never have to know. Kieran and I probably wouldn't have even known. She'll be confused and hurt that we never told her. I do hope she will understand why we never told her sooner. I know she's strong enough to know though, I just need to get the courage to tell her when she wants to know." Persy then looked up at the sky for a few minutes, thinking quietly. "Kieran and I decided to call her Hemera, the godess of Light so that she always knows she belongs with us because, without our Hemera to guide us, I don't know what we'd do."


Dracal looked towards her once again, smiling slightly. "I can understand partially why ...she did that, Mom. But Not completely. I felt at first like I did something to our relationship." He sighed gently. "I mustn't talk so much about her. It still hurts after all this time." He nodded softly while looking at the ground. "... In a way, I understand Hemera.. With your permission, I would like to at least be some sort of a mentor. A way of showing her things that only an adopted big brother can show." He said gently. "..But you are right, Mom. Think of it this way, if she hadn't came along.. Would you and Dad be this close to each other?" He had felt jealousy at times and he knew that his mother could see it. It simply couldn't help for he had thought he had everything worked out with Nyx.. She was his everything to him. His life.. His world. He just looked up at the sky. ".. Hopefully, I'll find a soulmate like you have, Mom... A Keiran.. Someone that will look past the emotional scars and still take you for every little thing through the goods.. and the bads." He said in an older voice. "And Mom.. When you tell Hemera.. Let me be there with you?"


Persy listened to him, her face soft but she didn't say anything. She didn't know how to comfort him, as a mother or as a friend. She knew he was in a lot of pain but she also knew that she had never gone through the same thing as Dracal had. Kieran was her first ever boyfriend and although they had been through an awful lot together their love was now stronger then ever. It took a lot of work but they fixed it. Persy smiled softly "Of course Dracal. Since all of her siblings are living away from her now it would be nice to have someone to look up to." she said with a bright smile. It was a shame Hemera didn't get to see her older siblings more often. She was such a shy little thing that Persy often worried about her. Persy sighed, thinking. "I think we'd still be very close but it was a big problem and was very difficult to deal with at the start so I suppose we had to work together more to actually sort it out. Unfortinatly one cat can't make everything better. If you're in a relationship you have to work every day at it or otherwise you'll find yourself on shaky ground." Persy looked at him carefully, her face serious. "Well I was lucky Dracal because when I was younger I was stupid and naive but I was lucky that the person I was stupid with also happened to be the love of my life. Strange how things turn out in the end." Persy the looked back up at the sky. "We'll see Dracal. It's all up to her, you know?"


Dracal listened to her, flattening his ears some as his eyes just closed. "That is just the thing, Mom.. Nyx didn't see just how hard I tried to make the relationship work. How I was willing to let her go to the university.. to be the perfect Ballerina. I knew what she wanted in life.. But at the same time, I was worried that she may find someone better than me." He just snorted, looking towards the horizon. "..I don't think she found me charming enough.. or interesting enough. Sure.. I'd told her that I am fine with everything that happened. I let her go because I wanted her to be happy. I didn't DARE to let her see the pain I still go through everyday, Mom.. " He'd thought he was over the pain. He'd mediated all day every day to keep the pain at bay. "..If things happened for a reason.. then what is mine?" He frowned as he just goes quiet, listening to her. "I'll stay close to the mansion. I got a spare room in my place if she ever want a night away, Mom." He had to get his mind off of Nyx somehow. "...Shaky ground my butt.." He mutters. "I never even knew that we were on ice.. never knew. I just thought everything was good." He felt his voice faltering as he just shook his head. "...I was young and stupid too, Mom.. Hell.. I was cocky. I didnt see any signs of the relationship gone downhill.. I swear I didn't.." He nodded gently while just moving closer to hug her. "..I'll take my time next time in a relationship.. I'll be more.. certain.. more cauious..." He sighed gently. "I tried to be mad at her, Mom.. I tried. But I couldn't."


Persy looked and Dracal and sighed softly. "It happens Dracal. I know it happens an awful lot. You saw what happend with your father and I. I thought that everything was fine. He seemed perfectly fine and then one day it just wasn't anymore. Unfortinatly that's just life. I know it hurts and I know you're angry and upset and I know there's no point in tell you to move on because you need to give yourself lots of time to do so. But I believe that in the long run this might be the best. You've never known many other girls other then Nyx and although I love her to bits she's not always the best cat in the world. Maybe, hopefully you'll meet someone better now, someone new." she said softly, continuing to look at the sky. "And don't blame yourself. If she wasn't happy it was her problem not yours. As for your reason, I can't answer. I don't even know my reason and I'm much older then you." Persy said with a sigh. She then turned to him. "It'll be wonderful to have you about more often Dracal, it really will be. Persy then couldn't help but laugh a tiny bit. "You think you were young and stupid! Dracal at your age I was pregnant with 5 kits with a cat I had never spoken too more then once. Now compare that to yourself and you may see some perspective. Of course I don't regret what happend. Yes I was young but in the end I suppose I ended up happy." she said softly


Dracal looked to her once more as he listened with a cocked ear to the side. "...It happens alot? What do you mean Nyx is not always the best cat? She wouldn't hurt anyone of us, would she?" He knew that Nyx was not here for she was at the university. He sighed as he nodded. "..Time seemed to be all I got, Mom.. Birman has helped me get the pain out for awhile. But why does it keeps coming back right when I think it is gone?" He frowned, looking down at his hand. "I left for her.. I did so much for her. Does she even know that?" Dracal mews softly as some thoughts ran through his mind. "..At the time, I wanted to be faithful to her. Isn't that good that I stayed faithful?" It was a habit of his to try to find out where did the relationship go wrong. That is when he heard his mother's next words. "..Don't blame myself? As much I tried not to.. that task itself is hard." He looked towards her. "... They always told me that it was her loss that she broke up with me. I never understood that." He looked towards the mansion, hoping to get a glimpse of some of the other kittens. "I do hope so, Mom. I will be around here more as much as I can. I haven't seen Birman for awhile so I do have to watch the park more closely." He looked towards her at her words, being speechless. "...Mother.." He frowned gently. "You are the strongest female I know out there. Hell! You are my idol. You would never hurt me." He flicks his tail ever so gently. "I was there for the latter of the pregancy...I helped keeping you warm on those cold nights.. I remember those nights." He smiled slightly at that moment.


Persy looked at Dracal and then looked away again. "Like...she's not perfect. I know you spent a lot of time with her but when you left she changed. No she's still a good cat but she can unintentionally hurt others, just as we all probably have in our own lives. I love her more then anything in the world but she does have flaws and imperfections. I think she tried to hard to hide them from you and just got obsessed with it." Persy said thinking to herself. "It will take a while Dracal, a long while for it to be better. It's going to be hard and it's going to be tough but your a strong boy and you'll get over her eventually. Persy nodded. "Of course she knows. But she also went though an awful lot during that time as well. She had to grow up as quickly as you did, though in different ways. And she stayed faithful to you too Dracal, she really did. But unfortinatly going away for her and staying faithful to her arn't going to save a relationship." Persy nodded. "I know it's difficult not to blame yourself but you have to learn to let her go. They mean that you're a wonderful cat and any girl would be lucky to have you." Persy laughed softly. "I wasn't strong back then. Not in the slightest. I was terrified and naive and fell head over heels in love far to quickly and in the end I hurt my kittens and couldn't do anything about it. It was horrid but I wouldn't change it because no matter how difficult it was and no matter how much I had to go through I love them so much, even if they don't feel the same. I grew strong over time. I'm not as naive anymore." Persy smiled. "I remember. You were lost and scared and you needed me so much back then and I needed you too."


Dracal listened to his mother as he knew that she had more wisdom that he would ever will. "... The only reason why I left was because I thought if I was out of the picture.. Dad would spend more time with you. That Dad and you wouldn't fight because of me. I didn't want to hurt her but I had to do something. I was still so very young. I didn't know back then that it was called running away from my problems.. but were they my problems really?" He frowned gently, looking at the scars that was made during the time he'd lived in the wild before staying with Belle. That was another one he'd stopped visiting for awhile. He wondered if he was really anti-social or scared to look for someone else. "Somehow.. I doubt the pain will ever truely go away, Mom. It is my first love. You never ever lose that.. No matter how much pain it is to think about it. There is a smile hidden in those memories.." He frowned gently as he listened to her once he'd gotten quiet. "....We both grew up before we should have." He looked at his mother. "...Then where did it go wrong? After she'd left for the university?" He felt burning tears in his eyes gently. "...Really, Mom? Am I really that good of a cat? It sure doesn't feel like it." He widen his eyes as he listened her. "But Mom! You didn't hurt me.. you didn't hurt any of us. I don't see the pain that you gave us.. if any at all. What did you mean? We did the best we could to help the first litter.. especially Nyx.. Now.. She is a risk taker... Am I right? Was I too overprotective of her? Is that what happened?" He just turned his body around lightly to face her. "..We helped each other even back then, Mom.. I don't think Dad ever understood that. I tried to see him as a dad.... Gosh.. even for a kitten like me to have that many problems in life." He smiled nervously.

Dracal's ears would move in a variety of directions almost as if he was trying to display every emotion at once. He didn't know what emotion to use at first, his wide eyes was looking directly at her. "...Mom, you know me way too well. Everything was new for her. Even the males there. I can't fault her for wanting to be free. We may never know why. Only that it happened." He just sighed. "It still hurts not to know why." He flinched at the time that Nyx had to take care of her. "..I wish I was there in that time. But I do understand what you are saying, Mama. It is not the matter of whether if her life was harder than mine.. But more like the matter of understanding that we both had a rough life." He then tilts his head, listening to her. He chuckled softly. "I remember sneaking her out to the old studio, helping her learn how to dance. I even learned some for her. But I wasn't the type to be able to THAT dancer. I was more like a fighter." He giggled at one moment. "I think you knew about the times we went there. Didn't you, Mom?" He knew that he would always see Nyx as an old flame of his heart that will keep burning but now as a sister. It would be hard but could be done.

Dracal listened to her with his ears perked towards her before flattening them. "Because I have hurt Nyx and then you and dad. I am not perfect." He shakes his head. "The creator gave you the kittens for reasons unknown to us. Maybe because you are a strong woman.. A woman that is so loving that she even took in someone like me that is not even your flesh and blood. I would never take back the day that we met, Mom. In that stormy weather." He reached up and pats her gently on the shoulder. "...Forgive yourself, Mom. Life will get easier once you do. I know I sound like a pitiful kitten but it is only natural that I am hurting and wanting to know the whys.. the whens and the hows." He said while trying to making her smile. He then heard his words about Nyx and nods. "I have forgiven myself for hurting all of you so long ago. I found it is best for me not to talk to Nyx about it." He then smiled at her last words. "I agree, Mom. Dad may not understand but he is my family too. I love him just the same."