I was talking with a life long friend and she kept driving home a point that I never realised, and I guess it just kind of hit me when she said it. Well, she said that my reaction to things is all backwards. The big things bounce off of me for the most part but the small things really sink in. The Big victories even if rare are just kind of a happy moment and I let it go, but smaller "wins" in terms of stuff happening I get ecstatic. learning Minor things like when I learned how to edit sprites, or got some drawing lessons or just coming up with a great idea I would love to put onto paper. Though the opposite also applies The Big stuff also just glances off of me, I lost my Mother and Grandmother and while it did hurt quite a bit but the little stuff seems to linger much more. I feel like I accept big things much quicker and small things like a white lie, or not being able to put what I want on paper correctly or even as stupid as dripping something Really gets on my nerves THEN it lingers there because I get down for being such a fool.

I really posted this thread to get some ideas on what could be causing this, or what kind of opinions people have on this kind of matter mainly. That and I really needed to vent a bit after a particularly difficult day.