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My mom pisses me off... She pestered me to unload the dishwasher this morning first thing I woke up.... I did it an hour later when I was finally wide awake enough to not clumsily drop something (I tend to be clumsy first thing in the morning and if I had dropped and broke something, she would have screamed at me then too)... and then not too long afterwards, I asked her if I had to go with her to the store, and she started screaming at me that I did. And I ran to my room to watch my cat. She then entered and tried to make me fill out applications, which I was too pissed off to do still. I came out to the living room to go onto this guild to try to calm down the rest of the way since looking at pictures of animals and reading about them tends to help me calm down, and she started screaming at me because I wasn't filling them out. If I try to do any writing when pissed off, my handwriting gets so horrible, even I can't read it, so how would I expect an employer to read it? She screams at me so much, she doesn't even realize she does it anymore (she says that she didn't yell at me when I asked her if I had to go or not, but she did. There have also been some huge number of times where she yelled at me and didn't realize she did). She wonders why I'm constantly pissed off at her, and where I get that all I pretty much have to do is ask her a question or look at her and get screamed at... She is all nice and friendly to my brother, even when he refuses to do what he is asked to do, but me, it doesn't matter if I do it or not, I piss her off.... I do something to try to make her happy, and it pisses her off instead. I have tried talking to her about it a million times, and I have even tried writing her a letter about it (as written letters tend to be a bit stronger than verbal for what ever reason) and that didn't help. I can't afford to move out, so I'm stuck with it... She's only relatively calmer when my dad's around, and that's because he won't tolerate it. I dunno what to do any more.... gonk gonk gonk crying crying crying The only time she seems in a remotely good mood with me is if we are talking about a subject she wants to talk about, or when she's on facebook. any other time, forget it. crying crying crying I'm sick of being screamed at and can't take it any more. crying crying gonk gonk

I can try, but I doubt that will work... *sighs* Not even dad can fully help...>.<