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Or I have some mental issues or something. talk2hand

I don't know. I have the feeling that everyone and everything is against me.

I don't feel like myself lately, I'm down and such.

I have failed a test today, for the 3th time. I have to re-do it again. I am not motivated to go to college anymore, not at all. And yet, I have to go, cause I can't stop. Reason; I have to pay back e-ver-y-thing.

Not to mention I am not motivated to anything at all anymore. Go shopping with friends, I just don't feel like it.

I have gained weight because I have a lot of stress with college and internship and work. I have to combine those three in one week.
I have turned fatter, and I hate it. I hate how I look like now. As my self-image is s**t.
I want to do something, like dancing, or anything to lose weight. But I always have to go on my own, because no one wants to go with me.

It's like everyone is expecting so much of me. And I have so much headaches, Just like my neck, my back, my feet and my hand/arm. . _.

+ There are some reasons, I went to therapy for, but it didn't worked at all. x-x

Not to mention I am completely stressing out how the hell I am going to pay college next year. Next year will be even busier, that I'll be surprised if I even have time for work.

But I don't want to sound like a whiner. emo

Oh D: That sounds like crap.

I understand how college is stressful and time consuming, they don't have the 'freshman 40' saying for nothing (although I'm not sure what you are in college).
If you aren't exercising because you're by yourself, do something at home, go for morning/ late night runs, or even go to a gym. You shouldn't think less of yourself because you've gained a little weight, you are still gorgeous and you can drop the weight fast if you just commit yourself to something. I think I told you before about Atkins, you can combine that low-carb diet plan with 30 minutes of exercise everyday and you should see results.

And regarding to the stress head and body aches, try meditation. I know that sounds weird, but it really helps me when I'm stressed. Maybe your boyfriend could give you massages to soothe you and kinda take away from all that stress you have too.

Try to focus on getting through this year, and next year you could try student loans. I don't know how your money or family situations are so I can't really suggest anything.

I hope I somehow helped a little and that things go better for you.