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 Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 8:12 am
It's really impossible for me to say how I feel right now. I wasn't even told, or considered, I just stumbled across it. I know this seals my fate here, so I just hope that anyone reads this before its gone.
@Dayna
I hope that you truly do appreciate what you've been given. This guild was the entire reason I ever met Jesse. He was upset that day because the guild was falling apart, and he was trying to move so many threads to the archive. I asked him if I could help him, and reluctantly he let me. I took one look at this place and I saw a group of people who were already so close I knew I was an outsider. But I cleaned up as best I could, and I hoped that I could ever be a part of it.
I've been a distant second place to you for so long now. You were and still are everything I'll never be. This is the second time he's handed you his heart. You're an amazing person, and I guess I just want to say thanks for trying to still put up with me. I know it was never easy, because I know you've never really wanted me around. But even when I was giving birth to his daughter it was you he was with that day. And now, without so much as a word to me, you're given what I tried so hard to save and what I poured my heart out for because it was part of him.
@Everyone else
Saying goodbye after 3+ years is more painful than I can even say. Some of you really tried hard to let me be a part of GCS. Even though I never did fit in, alot of you were really great to me. Nina, you're one of those. You always tried to cheer me up or make my day better. I can't really name everyone, but you all know who you are. I'll probably never stop looking at my guild list, expecting to see this one there. I'm always going to wonder how everyone is doing and if the guild is still around. That will be up to all of you though, to work with Dayna to keep it all going. I wish all of you the very best, and I hope that together you will never let this place lose its magic.
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 2:19 pm
Why don't you break my false illusion?
You'd better try to leave this position I honestly am not entirely sure how to respond to this. I'm sorry that you feel overlooked, left out and whathaveyou, but this wasn't a move made to make you feel small, or upset in any way. It's purely to make the guild strive.
I can't say all that I want to say, as the guild's main forum is the farthest from being the right place as it's possible to be, so all I'm going to say is that I've not been planning to ban you. I will admit that I did consider it, but not simply out of spite, or because I can, but only for your inactivity as of late. However, I've decided against that now.
I do intend to make changes around here, but none of them are going to be used to slight others, make any sort of personal attack, or invoke negative feelings simply because I can, and I apologise if that's how this whole thing has made you feel. Yet as said before, this is only to make GCS thrive.
Anyway, I think that's all that should be publicly said. I have an inbox if needs be, as you know 3nodding  Pain claims being your own creation
Time can't avoid my self deception
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 2:33 pm
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 2:57 pm
Radishes! You been always a popular and legendary part of GCS,
just look your thread is the most visited so far, and do that, with all your lack of time, is really a merit.
You do not have the necessity of abandon us in that way. Though, reckon that sometimes we need time to fix things, because everything in life, changes extremely fast and to evolve we ought to understand even if we do not like it or we are a bit lost, we do have to keep going.
So be happy and keep helping us, to have the magic on the guild. biggrin
P.S.
^///^
Thank you, is good to know that I have done something good for you.
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 7:45 pm
Oh Kis
I know I cant speak for the others but you a very important part of this guild as far as I am concerned
MK might have shown me the guild but it was you who really got me interested in it.
I dont see any reason anyone would want to ban you!
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 3:34 pm
@Nina The only reason my name is on that thread instead of MK's is that he asked me to hunt up the old chat thread the day I came here. I went looking and found it, only it was full of so much bitterness and drama I felt that it was not wise to bring that one back up. It doesn't say anything of me at all that people chat in the chat thread. That's simply the purpose for the thread.
@barney I explained everything to you on MSN, so I'm sure now you realize why this hit me so hard.
@Everyone It's not my intent to attention whore or otherwise. Its not a question of feeling left out or overlooked. Its a matter of being someone that was never a part of the old rp, was never part of the "group" as it were, and so there really isn't a role for me here. I tried so hard to get into the rp, to be here like MK wanted, but when old characters and old wounds were brought back up, I couldn't deal with it. That's why I'm "inactive" as of late. Its not because I can't be arsed to post. It's because I was devastated and very literally shattered by the events that took place extremely publicly here. Those events put me in the hospital, the damage is very very real. I still wish I could actually belong somewhere. I just don't know how long it will take to ever get past it all, or if its even possible.
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 3:55 pm
Shiny happy, die alone
Vicious girls, plastic guys I wasn't gonna post here but now I feel like I need to say something.
Why would an RP get to you that bad? It's what it says on the tin, an RP. Role play. It's not real life. You've said yourself that you're inactive so why are you so angry that Dayna (one of the most active people around here) got the new post as captain instead of you? :/
In the nicest way possible, I have absolutely no idea what you're getting at here ._.;; You keep scratching my back
And I'll scratch out your eyes
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 4:03 pm
Professional Toilet Roll
In the nicest way possible, I have absolutely no idea what you're getting at here ._.;;
...I feel the same way
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 4:12 pm
hmmm...Your name stills there, no matter who has the idea. Creators are always important.
And about the RP, Meh! RP is RP there will always be main, secondaries and Third characters, nothing so important, because those things, pages and lines will be lost someday, I do not think that someone has "the great idea" of print it and then publish it as a book or could be. cool
Be part of a group, will depends of your activity inside one, as in real life everyone needs to push out, their appealing to be remembered a little.
And most say that the sense of belonging is a bit difficult to obtain on virtual life, though not impossible as sometimes happens on RL.
All will depends, on the way you work it out, but is something that shouldn't be push by both sides.
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 4:17 pm
Professional Toilet Roll Shiny happy, die alone
Vicious girls, plastic guys I wasn't gonna post here but now I feel like I need to say something.
Why would an RP get to you that bad? It's what it says on the tin, an RP. Role play. It's not real life. You've said yourself that you're inactive so why are you so angry that Dayna (one of the most active people around here) got the new post as captain instead of you? :/
In the nicest way possible, I have absolutely no idea what you're getting at here ._.;; You keep scratching my back
And I'll scratch out your eyes Sweetie, I'm here to tell you it was plenty real, as you well know. The actions in here mirrored everything that was happening in real life. I'm not angry at Dayna, far from it. I'm hurt that I didn't even cross the mind of the man I love, yes, and I won't apologize for that. I'm hurt that he gave up the guild without so much as mentioning it to me. But those are my problems, and I never said anything about blaming people here for them. What I'm "getting at" here is that now that its not even his anymore, I realize that its pretty much the end of my being welcome here. I think everyone knows full well that the only reason I got to be here is because it was his, and being with him meant people had to tolerate me.
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 4:25 pm
*interruption*
Ehem...Sorry, but most say that is an utopia. Everyone here, is considerered as a single person (qualities, abilities, characteristics), no matter their relationship, no one is behind someone else.
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Posted: Sat Mar 27, 2010 4:29 pm
Why don't you break my false illusion?
You'd better try to leave this positionThe past is the past. I won't speak of it here.
"What I'm "getting at" here is that now that its not even his anymore, I realize that its pretty much the end of my being welcome here."
I do not believe I have ever given any indication that I planned to ban you. In fact, I said that I was not going to (although admitted that it had crossed my mind) in my first post here.
However, I feel this thread has served this purpose now, and it shall be locked. Lisa, continue to post around the guild if you wish, and if you do not, then I apologise that you do not feel capable to.Pain claims being your own creation
Time can't avoid my self deception
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