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 Posted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 8:28 pm
#Obscurite's Backstory: Part 5# [Memory of Oron: Age 34]
Many years had passed under the control of these men. These men with corrupted minds for science and immorality. They wanted to know Oron, everything about him. They used him, tested him, abused him, violated him. On many occasions had they made Oron defile women, forcing himself on them to attempt impregnating them, all in the hopes that they could create another child like. Every time had failed, even if they were pregnant, he never passed on his traits to his kin, and after discovering their normality, the children would be killed. He was then trained to torture people and take advantage of them, men and women alike. Oron never took kindly to being forced to hurt children, even though he had to a few times.
He followed their orders blindly, his eyes seemed to be permanent glazed over, as though no one was really there in his mind. He soon began to get enjoyment out of it. Believing that this was how to world was run, this was how it really was. This is the way that it was meant to be. Insanity began to plague his mind as he grew more wildly involved in torturing others, violating their body and mind. Make them feel like they wish they were dead. He wanted to turn them all into his slaves, a lifeless shell to do his own bidding, just as he had been treated for majority of his life. This was the way he felt it should be.
Soon, he began to hope for a chance outside, a chance to makes everyone else out in that terrible world feel the pain he had felt. No one would be safe from his delight for inflicting pain. He wanted out, he wanted to escape. Eventually, he had successfully found an opening in their security as he made a break for it, killing everyone that stood before him. His grin was wild as he enjoyed killing every last one of those that caused him pain. He would have killed everyone, but one was left, no two. It was a man, holding Lucia forcefully and a knife pressed against her throat. Oron paused, but stepped forward anyway.
“Any closer, and I’ll kill her!”
“Do it.. I don’t care for the b***h that betrayed me..”
“Ha! She didn’t betray you.. she tried to protect you and your mothers. It was cute to watch her bring you right to us unknowing that we had controlled her the whole time. She was perfect in her conditioning. She’s not your betrayer, she was your savior..” the man spoke, entertained by the idea but crazed and out of control to protect his own life.
“…L-lucia…” his eyes showed a small flint of emotion as it then glazed back over and he grinned. “I’ll kill you with my bare hands, and I’m going to enjoy every god damn moment of it!” he threatened with a wild grin. He lunged forward and grabbed his head with his hand and then head butted him hard, as he dropped Lucia. Oron began to rip out his organs one by one through his stomach, watching the man writhe in pain as he screamed for mercy. But there was none to be had. Oron continued until the man stopped moving, stopped breathing, stopped screaming. He was dead, and Oron grinned in delight.
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Posted: Fri Mar 12, 2010 8:35 pm
#Obscurite's Backstory: Part 6# [Birth of Obscurite]
He then turned back to Lucia, walked to her and then knelt down, holding her in his arms. He inspected her, and noticed blood on her dress, noticing it was coming from her neck. That man had the last laugh as Lucia’s throat had been slit. It wasn’t so deep to kill her instantly, but it was bleeding out fast, and at this rate, she would surely die.
“D-don’t… don’t leave me!!!” Oron cried, tears welling up in his eyes. Lucia smiled softly and placed a hand on his cheek.
“O-oron… I-I’m sorry… I-I tried to p-protect y-you..” she whispered weakly.
“No, Lucia. Please. I’ll save you. You just have to hold on!!” he exclaimed, the emotions rushing back into his mind, he had been closed off for so long, he couldn’t handle his emotions now that he had them again.
“…i-it’s okay… p-please save y-yourself…”
Oron’s face became stern. “I won’t let you die here… Even if I have to give my life to protect yours. You will live! I don’t belong in this world. I will give my own worthless life to make sure that you survive…”
“…i-if you d-do this… you w-will l-lose e-everything..”
“I don’t care… Lucia, you will live.”
“…i-I l-love y-you… o-oron…”
Oron leaned over and placed his lips against hers. He could feel everything was fading away, he felt like he was falling away from her, slowly losing touch with the world. Lucia’s neck began to glow as the wound started to heal. As the light subsided, she opened her eyes and smiled at Oron. He tried to smile, but he felt like his body was being ripped apart as he slowly fell asleep. He felt like he had taken sleeping pills that made him feel so woozy. “o-oron?” she called to him, as Oron looked up and leaned his head back, closing his eyes. The last image he saw was Lucia reaching for his body as he closed his eyes and fell into darkness. Lucia rushed to his body to hold him as his body fell to the ground lifeless and no longer living. Lucia began to scream his name, shaking his body and crying heavily.
“ORON!!! …….. Oron!!!!.... oron, no!!!...... oron……”
The voice was slowly fading away as Oron could feel himself falling down through abyss. “I am no longer Oron…” he spoke to himself.
He felt like he had been asleep for quite a while. He opened his eyes, he could see a bedroom, a dark bedroom. The walls were black with star stickers stuck to the walls. This was not where he was before. He couldn’t remember where he was, or where he had been, or who he was with. Everything he had known was gone, he couldn’t remember any of it. His body began to move, but he was not moving it. “Where am I?”
“Who is this? Why are you in my head?”
“In your head, you are in my head!”
“I am Rasiel.. Who are you?”
“My name….. is Obscurite..... And you are in MY new body..”
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Posted: Mon Mar 22, 2010 9:41 pm
#Paradise# [Diary Entry]
I woke up today to a dream. Like I really hadn't lived at all, almost like heaven. This dream, I hope it never ends. Deskri, he finally told me he loved me. I thought I'd die. Well, I was dead. But his words made me want to fight, made me want to live. I just hope this is real. Obscurite told me that it would never work, that Deskri would never love me, that I didn't deserve anyone. He's gone... and he's so wrong. I wish I had known sooner. Oh god, I wish I had known! But everything's okay. Everything's finally okay. Everything's finally going my way. For once.
Oh, Deskri. I never want to leave you. I want this moment to last forever. For you, I'll fight the world, just to see you smile. I'll stop pretending, I'll stop taking you for granted. Why didn't I notice that you had loved me all along? I may not always be there when you call my name, but I will always love you. And I promise I'll never leave you again.
God, I've missed you so much it hurts.
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Posted: Thu Mar 25, 2010 5:41 pm
#Withdrawals# [Diary Entry]
It been a while since I heard him speak. His voice, I feel like I need it, I feel like I can't live without it. I want to hear what he thinks, I want to know what he wants. His words are like fire, they burn me but yet they feel so good. Maybe if I make it hurt, he'll come back, he'll be drawn to my pain. Has he really made me this way? Has he succeeded in making me his perfect slave? Some part of me doesn't mind so much. It was nice to talk to him. He always knew what to say. I'm so desperate, such a f**, such a useless piece of dirt. It's getting harder to handle the silence. It's too quiet. I often find myself talking aloud to myself, putting myself down. Maybe one day, his voice will ring out and then I don't have to say anything anymore. I thought I hated him, I thought I wanted him gone. But for some reason, I don't want him to leave me here. He was my only friend since I was young... the only one that cared... No one will love me like he did... No one will care about me like he did...
Please... come back...
You can't just leave me here by myself..
I need you, and I'm sorry..
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Posted: Fri Mar 26, 2010 8:39 am
#Broken# [Diary Entry]
As I fall sadly within myself, I know that I am not normal. I know I am a freak. A broken, sad and pathetic excuse for a person. I feel like this place is not one that I belong in. I know that I am crazy and nothing really helps to change that. I can try to cut, I can try to take so many pills that I fall unconscious for days. But when the darkness fades and I wake back up, I'm still that monster I was when I fell asleep. Everything I've worked to earn, I have lost. Everything I held close, betrayed me and stabbed me in the back so hard I wanted to cry. And when the war was said in done, I was left alone. No one wanted to stay by me, no one would ever come to help me back up again. Nothing has ever truly gone right, has it? I can lie, and tell myself I felt happy, or experienced joy for even a short time. But I'll know it was only a lie. That voice inside my head, it tells me who I really am. Who I was always meant to be. A freak, a monster, a waste of existence. I can't remember how it all started, but I can still feel how painful the end was. Like a fresh wound, sweet and burning. Everything was a lie, and every time I told myself I was okay, it was never really the truth. Why can't it just stop, why won't my tears end? I just want to will it all away, make it silent once again. Make everything just go away. Sometimes I wish I could just end it all, just take that final bullet and just set myself free from all this sorrow. Everything I've lost, it's not going to come back. It's gone, and it's all my fault.
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Posted: Sun Mar 28, 2010 10:51 pm
#The Talk#
Rasiel had been sitting on the bed, minding his own business while adjusting the strings on his violin when he heard a knock on the door. "Come in, it's unlocked!" he responded, raising his voice so that the person on the other side of the door could hear him. The door opened slowly, and a man with spikey hair walked in, followed by a small girl with a medical face mask. Rasiel raised his eyebrow and then realized just what was happening here. His eyes darted for an escape, but found none. "What do you want.." he finally asked as the man motioned for the girl to play in the corner by herself with her teddy bear as he moved to sit on the bed next to him.
"You're mother sent me to talk to you. Man to man." he answered and then paused, "You do know who I am, right?"
Rasiel stared at him as his face grew into annoyance. "Of course I do. You're Alice's father, Daemin."
"Right. Well, I'm here to talk to you."
"Well, get on with it.." he demanded in a scornful tone.
"Kae told me you'd be this way... Well, I wanted to tell you that you're sister is going to be having kids. And is getting married."
"So? I don't give a s**t what Alice does.. She's her own damn person, so it's not like I care.."
"Right, well, I was supposed to talk about how I think you should be nice to your sister, she's really stressed out about everything, and I don't think you should be fighting any more with her. I mean, wouldn't you want her to behave and be nice to you when you have kids and get married.."
Rasiel sighed, only thinking that he could only mean with a girl. "Daemin, father, whoever the hell you are... You do realize.. I'm gay.. right?" he quirked his eyebrow in annoyance, just to see his reaction. Everything about this situation bothered him, and he wanted anything to just to make him go away.
Daemin cleared his throat. "Yes. Kae told me about your... 'sexual preference'.."
Rasiel snorted slightly and rolled his eyes. "Whatever..." and then it dawned on him as he stood quickly. "Wait, mother knows?!" he exclaimed, panic in his voice.
"Now, calm down.. She's not upset. I promise you, she's fine with it. Now please, sit down."
Rasiel paced slightly then sat back down, burying his face into his hands. "..oh god,... she's going to kill me.." he muttered.
"It'll be okay. She won't hurt you as long as I'm here. But anyway, do you think you could be nice to Alice, at least until her kids are born?"
"Yeah... I guess.." he admitted as he sighed.
Daemin, feeling nothing more need be said, frowned and stood. "Come on, Delilah, we need to go get ready for the wedding tomorrow.." he spoke softly as he reached out to grab her hand and they walked for the door.
Rasiel looked up to Daemin before he left. "Daemin... Alice isn't going to be happy about her.." he commented.
Daemin turned back and frowned again. "Yeah.. I know."
"Just... try to run faster than her... She's crafty."
"I'll be sure to remember that."
And with that, Daemin turned and left the room with Delilah and Rasiel picked up his violin and began to tune it again.
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Posted: Sun May 09, 2010 5:08 pm
#Behold, Day of Mothers#
Rasiel had been scurrying about the kitchen in the dorms, the place was a mess, but he didn't mind. He'd clean it later. Rasiel had been slaving over the stove for a while now, he was planning on cooking up the best picnic lunch ever for his mother, and surprisingly, for his sister too. Today was special, it was different as he could show his love for his mother and prove that he was the better offspring. He had made a four cheese linguine and baked a baguette. He also had made an entire cheesecake and various chocolates with different fillings such as orange, cherry and raspberry. Rasiel was proud of himself as he packed everything up into a large basket and ran off to the mansion to meet up with his mother and sister.
Once Rasiel had arrived, Alice smiled and hugged him. "It's good to see you again... Mother's almost done and we can go." He had shivered at the unnecessary contact but shook it off and said nothing. Kae and Alice had asked Nova to watch the kids for a day so that they could go out for a while, as they would be having lunch elsewhere and would be back before too long. Nova was more than happy to watch the kids as she had already been preparing them an army of food, mostly for Moira.
Kae stepped from the bedroom and smirked. "So where is it that we're going again?" she asked, still a little confused on the details. Alice giggled slightly, "Don't worry, mother. We'll handle everything." she answered as she walked outside, followed by Rasiel then Kae.
"Should I drive?" Kae inquired, raising an eyebrow.
"Oh heavens, no. You can't drive a car where we are going.." Alice responded with more giggling.
Rasiel handed the basket over to Alice, "Don't drop it." he stated matter of fact, as Alice shot a glare to him then smiled. They were both trying so very hard to get along with each other for mother. It was hard enough, but they had agreed not to bicker about anything whatsoever until afterward.
Rasiel moved over to Kae and picked her up into his arms. She was a little heavier than he had expected but he tried not to let on to his surprise. "Just hold on tightly." he requested and flapped his wings and took flight into the sky. Alice was quick to follow as she held tight to the basket. Rasiel was leading the way as they flew quite a far distance but it didn't take much time at all as they arrived at what looked like an old inactive volcano that hadn't ceased and forestry had grown all over it. There was a clearing at the top as they set down there. You could see the world from there, and even the academy still far off into the distance. It was a beautiful sight to behold as Rasiel set Kae down.
"Oh wow.. this place is amazing.. you two really outdid yourself this time.." Kae laughed. The doctor really hadn't expected anything for Mother's Day since she barely saw herself a mother, but rather a creator of life. She also secretly knew of the siblings' distaste for each other as she would always hear Alice yelling at someone on the phone and wasn't hard to guess who. It was very thoughtful of them to stop bickering for two seconds to take her out to eat all the way out there.
Alice set the basket down and they pulled out a blanket and spread it out across the ground, then Rasiel set up all the food, plates, and utensils. They ate lunch until they were all full, idling chatting to each other other recent events with one another. After a while, they had been chatting so long that the sun was starting the set.
"Thank you both so much for a wonderful Mother's Day. I couldn't have asked for more." Kae exclaimed happily.
"Mother, can I ask a question?" Rasiel inquired softly.
Alice already knew what was about to come as she quirked her eyebrow.
"Sure, what is it, Rasi?" Kae replied.
"Mother, who is your favorite?" he asked with a stern face.
"RASIEL!" Alice exclaimed angrily, appalled at his question.
Kae looked to the two of them and then burst out laughing and stood.
The two siblings looked to her then to each other puzzled.
"Well that's an easy one.. Neither of you." Kae responded with a grin.
Alice then laughed and stood as well, moving over to Kae.
"Let's go back now." Kae then spoke as Alice then nodded and picked up Kae and began to flap her wings taking to the sky.
"B-but WAIT! THAT DOESN'T EVEN ANSWER MY QUESTION!!" he called out and then sighed. Packing up the left over chocolate and cheesecake, he figured he could share the rest with Deskri once he got back. He took up the basket and took flight, darting after them. "HEY!! WAIT UP!!!" he yelled as he tried to catch up with them as they both just continued to laugh.
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Posted: Sun Nov 07, 2010 5:12 pm
#If I Could Curse My Family, I Would# [Diary Entry]
No one ever asks me what I want. No one ever considers my feelings. I never wanted to come out here. And to make matters worse, I think Obscurite is following me somehow. I can hear him, faint.. distant. But he's there. I know it.
Regardless of the circumstance, I did NOT have to come all the way out here. It's her stupid kid, so what does it matter to me. And to make matters worse, Alice claimed I was too emo being cooped up by myself, stole my diary journal and freaking locked me outside. "Go make some new friends" she says... What a ******** b***h.
My mother is no better, she's always agreeing with Alice on things. And even ******** worse, Alice gets all pissy whenever I mention Syth's name. I think it's because since she can't be with Syth right now, she somehow convinced mother that I shouldn't be with Deskri right now. Two-timing b***h. If my sister were some witch, she'd be the Queen of all Misery. She just can't stop making things worse for me.
I really miss Deskri. I hate being so far away, but dammit I can't get away from these hellhounds. I hope he's alright... I mean, he'd have to be... Sonnet is there. I just want nothing more than to get the hell out of here and get back to the Academy. I want to see Deskri again, no matter what the hell my sister says.
I also found this weird item in the dessert. I plan on sneaking it back with me and showing it to Deskri... I hope he likes it.
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Posted: Mon Nov 08, 2010 7:20 pm
#Irony# [Diary Entry]
Today... this day. Only this day.
I remember this day. It is the same day I met you. This very wretched day. This was the day that Syth cut me deep with her sword and left me for dead. I escaped, but you found me. You took me to the Nurse. All by yourself. Took me on your back and carried me to safety.
I remember sharing that bed with you.
It was the first time I told you that I was really in love with you, though I doubt you heard me... or would even remember.
This ******** horrible day, I never want to remember it. It brings too much pain.
On this day, we started our friendship, we began our journey towards each other. I could never have fathomed this is where I would have ended up.
I want to forget this day. Because this day.. is also the day we broke up. This very day, we end the beautiful thing we started.
I never want to remember again, so I'll confide in these pills one last time, and hope they get me through the day.
I wonder.... if you even remember.
You probably don't.
I'm sorry.
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Posted: Sat Aug 06, 2011 6:48 pm
#Pathetic is an Understatement to Describe Myself# [Diary Entry]
I never want to go back. I hate that place so much. But I may have no choice soon.
Alice has locked herself up in a small house by the river. I visit her as often as I can, but she won't speak anymore. She refuses to talk, and sometimes she refuses to open the door. I try talking to her, but she never responds. I cook her some food for the week and just hope she'll eat it. Sometimes, she doesn't. Alice seems so paranoid. But all I can do is be there for her. Countless times, I had come over and Lucian was by himself and he began to look very sickly. I figured I would take him into my care since Alice doesn't seem capable of taking care of him. She didn't even fight me on it. She watched me take him, and still never a word from her mouth. I brought her the old journal she used to own, I hope that could help her get all those thoughts off her chest. I just hope one day she'll finally talk again. She looks so lonely by herself.
I've been with Andy since I found her along with her sister at Elaena's house. Both her mother and mine have been gone without a trace. We've been taking care of Kira, Lucian, and Delilah as if they were our on children. They kind of are at this point. Kira is a handful in itself with her hyperactivity exceeding that of a cracked-up child. Andy is usually very good at handling her, as I still cannot get her to comply at times. Lucian still has the mind of a toddler since he never got enough care growing up. He's become more lively since Delilah has been playing with him often. Lucian tends to become violent when something upsets some sort of balance that he has established in his mind. He's normally very calm, but if per say Kira runs up and pushes Delilah down, we have the hardest time stopping Lucian from trying to severely hurt Kira.
Things get pretty hectic at the house sometimes. It especially becomes worse when outsiders vandalize our home. The children take it upon themselves to seek out some form of justice. We reprimand them from doing such things, but sometimes we cannot stop everything with Kira being so fast and Lucian and Delilah being so powerful.
The children haven't been allowed to play outside in the longest time now and that simply isn't fair to them. Andy and I have talked many times that we both believe the kids really need to take them back to the academy. They can help the children better control their powers and learn to use them for good. But in the end, we can't decide who should go with them. I think Andy should go with them to the academy. I don't belong there anymore. I'd rather stay here, no matter how much of an outcast I am to them. Andy would grow into a fine woman and probably find someone better suited for her than a lowlife like me.
If only I could get her to understand that it's better this way. But she insists we all go back. Is there really anything back there worth returning to? The future looks pretty bleak for me on that very note.
... I wonder what Deskri has been up to...
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Posted: Wed Aug 10, 2011 3:48 pm
#Lonely# [Diary Entry]
Let's just be honest. No beating around the bush. No second guessing the situation.
I really hate being alone.
Her smile is kinda nice. She's there for me. It's like, I've grown to want her company. But we all know, no one else wants to be around me.
Sometimes, she really makes an effort. Asks me how I'm doing. Sees if there's anything that she can do to cheer me up.
I guess it's obvious, no matter how hard I try to hide it. I'm depressed on the inside. And she knows exactly why. Or does she?
Sometimes... very rarely, her curiosity perks up, she tries so hard to find out why I'm sad. She even brings me strawberries.
I like strawberries.
But it's just not enough anymore. Everything reminds me of him.
Other times, I doubt she even really cares. She goes out often.
Often times, she comes back drunk. I know where she's been. She's been with other men. But it's not like I can complain. She's not really mine, after all. So what's the point in arguing with her about it. It doesn't hurt as much anymore when she does it. So who cares.
It'll be nice when she and the children leave for the academy. It'll finally be quiet around here. But then again, I really hate being alone.
Because even though it's been ages, when it gets really quiet... I can sometimes still hear Obscurite's voice.
And he just keeps reminding me.. of just how much I really hate myself.
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Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2011 1:26 pm
#Emergency# [Diary Entry]
God dammit! Is this really happening? This can't be. I can't lose everything like this!
I received a call earlier this morning. It was mother. It was such a relief to hear her voice again, to know she was still alive. But what I heard afterwards was not as pleasant.
She'd been hospitalized for a while. A coma she said. That's why no one knew where she'd gone. No one knew who she was then. But she had finally woken up. Radiation Poisoning. That was the cause of her hospitalization. I didn't understand at first, but she told me how it happened.
It happened in the dessert. Lucian had been sick, they had no idea he could emit solar flares. Mother and sister would both have been affected by the radiation. I was stupid, stubbornly running off on my own all the time. That's why it never happened to me. Or even Delilah. She was with me the whole time.
It took me a while to realize how bad the situation was. I ran. I ran as fast as I could with stopping, not even once the whole way to the place Alice was. I didn't even care to knock, by then it may have been too late.
It isn't fair.
I busted down the door, I had no choice.
I was right, my sister had already collapsed. I don't even know how long she'd been unconscious. It isn't fair. I did my best to get her to a hospital. The humans, they don't even like us. I didn't care.
Help my sister or else, I told them.
Fearing the worst, they didn't question me further. It's best they didn't.
God, please be okay, Alice.
She's in a coma now. They said it was good I got her there when I did. If I hadn't, she'd be dead. But even so, they don't know if she'll be okay.
She's been suffering all this time, and I had no idea.
They stabilized her.
I'll come here every day if I have to. She just has to wake up again. She has to.
I never had a clue how much she sacrificed until this point.
I can't believe I was so selfish to never notice.
I'm such an idiot.
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Posted: Mon Aug 15, 2011 2:36 pm
#Back to Square One# [Diary Entry]
I'm not stupid.
But whatever, right? Nevermind that I've been the only one keeping this damn family from going under. I've been trying to fix everything. But I've been taken for granted.
I'm sorry I'm not the perfect son or the perfect brother, but ********. It's not funny. I was only trying to care for my sister, but no one ever sees my efforts.
I give up.
Alice finally woke up and she was fine. She had just collapsed from malnutrition. Okay, so I may have overreacted. So it wasn't "solar flares" or whatever stupid thing mother said. She said that I was wrong even in saying that. Well, I'm sorry that I can't understand your damn sciencey mumbo-jumbo!
God! My mother pisses me off. Oh, and even worse, is my sister seems so close to mother and doesn't even seem to care that I was the only one taking care of Alice AND her kid.
They piss me off.
I was better off just going to the Academy with Andy like we planned.
And Alice, don't expect Lucian back. I think Andy and I are the best thing that happened to him.
I'm so mad, I can't even think anymore.
I hope you're happy.
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