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Long long story, but I need to vent about this crap.

Back in 08 - My school lets me take time off for the first part of my licensing exam which covers all of the medical science stuff that was covered in the first half of school. Because I can't study at home because of the daily drama and nagging I go to find a program where I can study. I go to check out one program and don't get the best feeling, but end up getting sticking with it anyway. Junk happens including a move for the program but still stick with it because I need to be around others that are also studying to have any motivation to get it done. Took the test and passed it and thought things would finally work out.

Then back this last October I get a letter of doom pretty much saying they think that my score was because of that program and not my own work. So I took the option to go in front of them in December so I could plead my case, and tell them it was all my work and I studied with others and didn't rely on that programs stupid question bank, which was full of errors and things that made no sense. Plus I couldn't get my money back and got along with people there whom I was able to study with so that's why I stuck around. Also parents telling me to "stick with it, don't quit the program now D:" (Only my sis got that something wasn't right near the end).

Next an intermission to that joy in November - I get into a car accident on the highway in Chicago. =D I'm driving, then a car in the next lane decides to move from some cars next to her by driving into me, which sent me into another car, then out of control, before I somehow figured out to get to the wall and not get horribly injured... or dead. This probably all happened in less than a minute. Anyway, car got totaled and had to deal with getting out of the tow yard and lovely insurance stuff and getting checked by doctors. Found out in December when I finally got home I had some torn ligaments in my spine and neck...which still hurt because they're slow to heal.

Back to the story - I go in December to the meeting/inquisition in Phily and tell them how I studied long hours while at the program, showed them my books and notes as well at test scores from their old tests that showed I actually made progress and that my score was related to that. Also very nervous during the whole thing. Meeting was over and seemed to go well...but then I heard a burst of laughter from the room. My sister also heard it so, knew it wasn't imagining it. Over a month later, I get a letter pretty much saying "well you said you worked hard but... you went to the program and even without those questions we're not sure you would would have passed since you were pretty much at the passing score, so retake the exam lololololz =DD" Found out from a friend that they made a lot of the decisions before people even came before them so going there was pretty much a waste of money and time.

To make a long story short - Have to retake the test of doom this summer. Have to find a quiet, low drama environment to study where other people are studying, and just take that and the other 2 parts of the monster exam.

Its just so freaking frustrating to do all that work and have this board go, 'no we think you only passed because you happened to go to that program." I worked harder than I ever did to pass that test literally studying from when I woke up to when I went to bed for more than a month, minus eating, really short breaks for normal functions or having to go buy food. And add to that the fact that I hated the stupid error filled bank that the program's head guy would tell us to do and only focus on that so we would pass. I hardly used it and used my own stuff most of the time.

So ever since that I've had little motivation to do anything at all. But I can't stay like that because I have to study my a** off even more so I can pass and shove it in their faces. D<

go kick a** insom

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Hai SG people not on total hiatus anymore =D and thanks for all the well wishes <3333

So took my test 2 weeks ago and still waiting for results. While I was gone I got in another car accident... and finally got to start actual rehab for both. Hopefully this crapfest will be over soon and things can actually get slightly better.

Now to study for other monster test I should have gotten done instead of the one I passed already and had to redo. D<

@choic about why - because there is only one national board that gives out this exam and you can't work in medicine unless you pass all their tests... and if they have a problem with a study program they can make everyone who went there, even the people who studied their asses off, retake it since they pretty much control it all.

Missed you guys <3