I appoint *you* Secretary of Cheese, and My guy had sex with a girl he barely knew a few years ago and -without knowing- contracted an STI. I've known him for a really long time and about 4 months into our actual relationship, I wanted to have sex with him. Maybe I was rushing it, I didn't care and still don't, it was exactly what I wanted at that moment and that's all that matters to me. (I try not to regret anything I did on purpose.)
In March, I made the mistake of not using a condom (I was on birth control, but I don't need to be lectured about that, I knew it was stupid right after I did it).
Since March my body was doing weird things and just wasn't working right. Less than a month ago, I learned that my cervix and uterus is covered in sores, there's a lot of them and it's really damaged me inside and because of it, my monthly cycle is all screwed up and causing me immense pain.
The doctor told me that the damage is irreversible and that it will probably scar and has probably already left me unable to get pregnant without some sort of help. There's just too many sores and when it scars there will be nothing for the embryo to hold onto easily.
Even though it's painful, I still want to have sex with him -I just want the physical closeness to him- but he just says no, and that he doesn't want to hurt me any more. He'll "play" with me, but won't actually have sex with me. He's got the STI too, and the damage I have is already irreversible, we'd be using a condom, and we've already both got it, so my question is:
On valentines day, I wanted to do something special because that was the night I lost my virginity to him last year, would it be that bad if we just did it that night?
I'm sorry if I'm being really stupid about it, and please don't get angry with me for this, I was just wondering if anyone knew if there would be too much of a problem with it, I'm not able to ask a doctor offhand ):
BTW I'm 19 in case anyone needed to know...
In March, I made the mistake of not using a condom (I was on birth control, but I don't need to be lectured about that, I knew it was stupid right after I did it).
Since March my body was doing weird things and just wasn't working right. Less than a month ago, I learned that my cervix and uterus is covered in sores, there's a lot of them and it's really damaged me inside and because of it, my monthly cycle is all screwed up and causing me immense pain.
The doctor told me that the damage is irreversible and that it will probably scar and has probably already left me unable to get pregnant without some sort of help. There's just too many sores and when it scars there will be nothing for the embryo to hold onto easily.
Even though it's painful, I still want to have sex with him -I just want the physical closeness to him- but he just says no, and that he doesn't want to hurt me any more. He'll "play" with me, but won't actually have sex with me. He's got the STI too, and the damage I have is already irreversible, we'd be using a condom, and we've already both got it, so my question is:
On valentines day, I wanted to do something special because that was the night I lost my virginity to him last year, would it be that bad if we just did it that night?
I'm sorry if I'm being really stupid about it, and please don't get angry with me for this, I was just wondering if anyone knew if there would be too much of a problem with it, I'm not able to ask a doctor offhand ):
BTW I'm 19 in case anyone needed to know...
*you* Keeper of the Lint.
