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Well i had a reality check yesterday and it was rather wierd. and yes i know most of yo don't know me at all. So dont mind me. BUT this was my reality check.

OK! Basically it involves a very nice guy named josh and every1 else in this ******** self relying world. It all started since i met josh...and met the people who would pick on him and i would always think that ""ahhh he can handle himself hes a big dude"". Well he doesnt and i have nothing against josh and yes i know he is a nice guy that wouldnt hurt a fly. But i have 1 problem...he doesnt stick up for him self... and in class i was holding myself bak from getting into a fight with like 4 different people because of him. The only thing holding me bak was the fact that i knew some1 was gonna sukker punch me. And today in the locker room i was going to go off on who ever thru the ball because all that happens to me every single ******** day gets rly annoying when it happens day after day after day. So today the only thing i did was sit in class cracking my knuckles 1 after the other loosing them so they would hurt as much when i was going to have to beat the s**t out of some1... SO! i was riding my bike home today ( i havent told any1 you are the first Haha special you...) and 3 guys came riding next to me making fun of my helemet and how i was stupid so i told the main guy "" stfu and make sure you r picking on the right guy because sirrrrr im not in the moood"" he said ""boy i will ******** you up"" and i said ""wat r u going to do sit on me?"" As you would think that did not make him very happy so he ramed my bike i fell of and they got off there bikes and started walking towards me soo lucky me from what has all beeen happening to me my entire life i kind of let out on this guy (the main 1) sooo he walks toward me "big and tough" and he i walk to him fast and i nail him in the head with my elbow, then he is in like shock because he actually got hit. I pull him up and said "i told you to watch who you pick on" and i let him go (in a sign of im gonna walk away k?) then he swings at me and clips my stomach. So i punched him in the ******** face and then it was all over he slamed to the the ground and i got bak on my bike and then went home. So this entire time of being home i have been saying to my self this is all real my life is real and i am going to die someday maybe tomarrow. And at dinner i was thinking when my sister said she isnt hungry anymore and she had a full plate of foood that kids in other countrys would kill for that food spoiled r not... and for the past few hours i have just been listening to music wondering whats going to happen next.

And that my friends is my reality check. Im truly sorry for the words i said, im just kind of mad with every one i the world right now. So now i think im going to devote my life to try and make this senseless world a bit better.

Sounds like you faced your own mortality today. I hope you can do what you say...to make the world a little bit better every day. We need more people like that in the world.