look man i know what your talken bout been there done that. sounds like you need new fam. i had fam like that at one point only got one or two left i trust with my life and sanity.
i'm exactly like you give and give... but i dont ask for anything in return. hell my family my blood hasnt really been there for me eather. they all turned their backs on me unless they want something of me. like my older sister who is ten years older than me, takes and takes from me just cause she had to spare a year of her life to let me finish my last year of school.
i paid my debt to her in full for the room and board. i've helped... wait wrong word i have come down and cleaned her house twice sense i left, cleaning up dog s**t and cobwebs and all that s**t cause she works a 8 hour job and she and her 16 year old son are to lazy to take care of theirselves.
anyway the point is dont let people walk all over you. if they want s**t they need to go find someone else. just sounds as if your "homies" are taking blantent advatage of you being a true homie to them. you need to find some new homies or even friends that will really be there for you like you will be there for them.
i call my juggalo homies because the few people i call homies HAVE helped me when i had no one to take me in or help me out, and they know if they ever needed help i'd be there. they know if they were running from someone i'd hide their asses, and then go out and beat the f*** out of who ever it was. (that being said for mostly the lady homies but it could go for the guys if it was something official)
basicly i'm saying you aint the only one homie. no wonder you aint in the mood as you said it.
thank you for letting me talk and remember all the fam aint like what you got. we are a lot different in different places yet all around.
now i'm out before i make this any longer,
MMFWCL,
ninja WLJ ninja