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 Posted: Tue Dec 13, 2005 7:32 pm
... so I came here.
Y'all, I got a problem. sweatdrop
My hunny just got home, like last week, and things have been really good. Before you click away, this is not a relationship issue, this is a straight ghetto thang, okay?
Okay, so things have been really good. We've been spending time together whenever possible, and he's been not actin' like an a**, like he has in the past.
So why are we not allowed to have Christmas? Not once in 8 years have we spent a Christmas, New Year's, Thanksgiving, birthday (either), Valentine's Day, or anniversary together, and let me tell you why.
Assholes in the ******** projects always gotta be shootin' up s**t - like a muthafukka's house. stressed Why in the hell can't folks leave well enough alone? Baby's been gone over a year, moved out to NH, you know? Came back to be with his Mama for her wedding and whatnot, and already punk-asses are shootin' up her house tryna get at him. See, he came outside, just to say hello to my almost niece and her BF, and some dickheads in a car want to pull that 1992 drive-by s**t. Almost hit homegirl, too, which is even more ******** up. stressed
Why? Straight jealousy. Yeah, I said it. I know he's not an innocent man. He's not always been Joe Perfect, but dammit, he hasn't been behavin' like an a*****e for the last 5 ********' years (nearly 6!), so what the hell is the purpose of tryna get at him 6 years later? Nothing but jealous of a brutha tryna come up, that's all! And, before you judge, and talk about karma and whatnot, please keep in mind that when I say 'acting like an a*****e' I don't mean running around with gangs or whatever. He's a party kid, you know? sweatdrop Likes to drink, and sometimes smoke, and basically party. That whole violent s**t was never his thing. Not ever. He would stick up for his friends and family when they were in trouble, but never got into that s**t on his own. sweatdrop
Only a year to the wedding... I didn't want to lose him at all, but seriously, y'all, not like this.
What the ******** do we do now?
crying crying crying
I can see that y'all ain't here right now.
Well, that's okay. But this happened about 10 minutes before I posted this, and he just called again to say everything is cool, so I'm going down there to see Moms and 'em
I hope I'll catch y'all tomorrow.
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Posted: Wed Dec 14, 2005 5:24 am
[...Well, I'm glad everything is cool. I hope no one was hurt.
I lived in the projects for the majority of my life, and still I have nothing to say to explain what happened. You say it dealt with jealousy; I have no doubts that this was probably the case 100%. I hate how black folks try to keep one another down. Like some of us don't already have enough s**t to deal with~!
I experienced hatred in elementary school because "black kids aren't supposed to be intelligent or artistic." Got hated on in junior high for the same reasons PLUS because "black kids shouldn't hang out with 'goth/stoner' kids." And in highschool, well, the list continues. By this time any other person may have snapped and decided to apply the Golden Rule to getting revenge (make the lives of others a living hell because when you were coming up they made yours hell). But I didn't.
While for people around me it escalated into violence against others who "have it too good," I kept to myself and continued to believe that there's good in all people. sweatdrop Neighbors tried to sabotage our car because it was "too nice for us to have." Tried to steal things off our porch. Let their kids grafiti the outside of our apartment. The list goes on and on.
Instead of living and letting others live their own lives, some people find it necessary to not "keep up with the Jones'," but to try and hurt "the Jones'" as much as possible to prevent them from rising above all this ghetto bullshit. evil
I'm not sure what actions should be taken.
For my family we just went on with our lives, replaced what was broken/stolen, fixed what was sabotaged, and prayed that things never got out of hand to the point at which people started getting violent before we were able to get out.
Finally, we were able to leave (******** government housing...but that's another topic for another time).
People shouldn't have to "get out" or run away just because there are stupid punk a** folks who feel obligated to teach you a lesson. confused I really wish there was more I could say about it...but like I stated in the beginning: I can't explain what happened, and though I know it's not comforting, I really am not sure what could be done... sad ]
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Posted: Wed Dec 14, 2005 8:02 am
girl, i know there's nothing that can be done, not really. but the thing is, he's got that so-called 'ghetto pride' that won't just let s**t be. i just know he's gonna do something stupid. he just got here a couple weeks ago, and i haven't seen him (before then) for nearly a year.
i'm scared to death that i'll get home from work one of these days, and hear some really messed up news.
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Posted: Fri Dec 16, 2005 7:46 am
Kaenai girl, i know there's nothing that can be done, not really. but the thing is, he's got that so-called 'ghetto pride' that won't just let s**t be. i just know he's gonna do something stupid. he just got here a couple weeks ago, and i haven't seen him (before then) for nearly a year. i'm scared to death that i'll get home from work one of these days, and hear some really messed up news. [I hear you. Hopefully things turn out well, though, especially considering the time of year. It's been a day now; any updates on how everyone is doing after experiencing such trauma??]
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Posted: Sat Dec 17, 2005 1:28 pm
Passion_Dragon Kaenai girl, i know there's nothing that can be done, not really. but the thing is, he's got that so-called 'ghetto pride' that won't just let s**t be. i just know he's gonna do something stupid. he just got here a couple weeks ago, and i haven't seen him (before then) for nearly a year. i'm scared to death that i'll get home from work one of these days, and hear some really messed up news. [I hear you. Hopefully things turn out well, though, especially considering the time of year. It's been a day now; any updates on how everyone is doing after experiencing such trauma??] Well, so far, folks aren't saying much. Everyone appears to be all right, and with the everyday drama, folks haven't had much time to consider the details. He says he needs 'protection' ( you know), and i disapprove, but in a way, i'd rather he was caught with than without such protection. I'm on the fence on that one, but i've been having this recurring dream - been having since i was 20, but not for a while now. It's sprung up again, and it has me worried as hell. I never could see who was in it - all the faces were blurred, but i remember someone died. Last time I dreamt someone died, the person was shot 3 days later; spooky, but true eek so i'm worried. i can't even decide on 'caps' or 'no caps' typing this. he just left here, and something is telling me that i won't see him again. but his niece, and everyone else is okay. 4 other people were shot and killed the same night he was shot at. turns out, they were friends. something's up.
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Posted: Sat Dec 17, 2005 3:30 pm
[I understand where you're coming from on the "protection" subject. I wouldn't approve either, but like you say, it's better to have it than not in his situation.
I think sometimes we actually can "will" things to happen to a certain degree. And to some length, I think all of us have a little "psychic" in us. I remember when I was younger, I was walking home from the store, and I came to a little rivlet of water. It was wide enough that I could amuse myself by jumping from bank to bank. But before I even started jumping, I saw in my mind that I was going to slip and fall. ...And low and behold, when I jumped, I slipped on the muddy grass and landed right on my backside. eek So I totally believe you. I'm sure plenty of people have predicted or willed or "projected" a thought or feeling or idea or event "into" happening; they made it reality. Now that's not to say that these things weren't going to happen anyway, but isn't it strange to have advance warning???
As for the situation at hand: I hope things improve to where you don't have to worry if you'll see him again. That feeling really sucks. sad ]
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Posted: Sat Dec 17, 2005 5:28 pm
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Posted: Sun Dec 18, 2005 11:58 am
if it were that simple, we would have been gone when the 9 year old across the street was accidentally shot a few years back. sometimes things aren't as cut-and-dry as we'd like.
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 1:48 am
Kaenai if it were that simple, we would have been gone when the 9 year old across the street was accidentally shot a few years back. sometimes things aren't as cut-and-dry as we'd like. Depending on how you look at it, it is as "cut-and-dry" as we'd all like.
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Posted: Mon Dec 19, 2005 3:49 am
Soothsayer Jeckal Kaenai if it were that simple, we would have been gone when the 9 year old across the street was accidentally shot a few years back. sometimes things aren't as cut-and-dry as we'd like. Depending on how you look at it, it is as "cut-and-dry" as we'd all like. you must have one hell of a set of rose-colored glasses. i'll have to borrow them sometime. rolleyes not that it's any of your business, but i can't even afford gifts for my kids for xmas this year, so how in the hell do you see me getting up and moving any time soon? take me at least a year, maybe 2 to be anywhere near in that position. there's only one way to look at it right now, and that's pretty much that one has to deal with it until one doesn't have to anymore. it's great to be objective about the situation, and i'm glad you're able to do that, but since i'm actually in the situation, and you aren't, i'm fairly certain i'm more qualified to view what my options are. i hope that's cut-and-dry enough for you. stressed 9
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