dont freak out over it just sit back and do your own thing if u feel awkward just try 2 ignore it and go on with life you'll meet your lover, and your family might not be trying to make you feel that way but thats just how families are they make people feel awkward. blaugh
I know how you feel. Lately (for years, actually) I've been suffering from depression because, since I'm homeschooled, I have no boyfriend and no friends at all. So I go out and I see all these people with their friends/boyfriends/girlfriends and it makes me feel really alone and awkward. It really sucks when you feel like this, but I agree with Master Stamp, just sit back and some time you'll find someone who you can be really happy with. =)
[ ...but to one person you may be the world... ] ☠