A/N:Bear with me on this... I have alot going through my head.

I sit at night contemplating the next day,
Wondering whether or not even waking is worth it...

If I give in, then I am a helpless quitter,
But I don't know if I can fight any more..

What am I fighting for..?
I've lost direction, purpose in my life.
Lost the care I had for humanity, for people,
Because everyone is so afraid...

Afraid of death, of loss and being hurt...
But what is the point in life if there is no chance involved?
What purpose do we have when we have no one?
If only people could see the world the way I do...

I don't see the harm in everything,
How someone so hurt isn't looking for happiness...

I see all the pain and feel it,
Deep within my heart I still care I...
I just can't seem to find the one I used to be...

My life is falling apart and I can't even catch the pieces...
No one can see how much I endure,
Because I will not allow myself to look weak,
Not in this world, or the next.

Whatever I am meant to do,
Whatever purpose I may have in this life...
It is forever hidden from me,
Between dark and light, in twilight...

They say it is always darkest before the sun...
I say it is always dark, with or without the sun.

My words to everyone...

The life I have lived is not one to be proud of. The life I pursued was taken from me, and the one I am in now... Is hidden from sight, from my eyes. If only to have reason, to have purpose... To have someone who will miss me while I am away.

That, my friends... Is what I want life to lead to...

_Vincent, SN