11/11/2009
last I weight myself I was 220lbs.... I am the fattest I have ever been. I admit alot contributed to my health downfall.
I met my current boyfriend online. two, almost three years ago. and moved all the way from Corona CA to Corbin KY to be with him. family issues came up alot of stress with work and such. then after starting depovera (they DID not tell me it would do this to me) I gained 50lbs in a year.
I used to be 160lbs and I hated myself for how fat I felt and how gross I thought I looked.... now I wish I looked that way again... my only goal right now is to look that way again. I will never be a twig. my body is not made that way. besides i like curves, i just done like the blubber I have right now.
so i am changing my eating habits to healthier foods. more veggies. I'm trying to cut off sodas and chips. no chocolate no matter how much I love it. if we get fast food it has to be chicken or just some kind of salad. I'm walking more.
becuase of my weight all i really can do is walk considering my weight is very hard on my knees back and heart. I cant breath in the morning I'm tired all the time. I cant stand for long periods of time. I waddle instead of walk. I cant fit into jeans anymore. and i have a double chin. I cant keep this up. i want to be back to normal!
support would be loved... i know this will be hard. maybe I'll post a before picture.