It's just really starting to hit me that my friend no longer goes to my school. For like the past month she's been there and gone and she was going to switch schools and then she didn't. And she was back but then she was sick and now she's going to an online high school and it's just weird. I keep wanting to call her and ask when she's coming back and if she's sick like i do when any of my friends miss a few days of school. But she's not coming back, at least not this year and that's just so weird. And no one else seems to think it's that weird that we no longer see her everyday and that i only talk to her when we're texting. And i want to just hang out with her but i've been so busy and so stressed and i need to get a job and i just have no time. No one else seems worried that it's going to be like when Nick left. Sure she and Nick are completely different but he and i we good friends and then he switched schools and i haven't talked to him since August now and i only see him like twice a year and he never responds to me online and i miss him and i don't want to lose her like that. And she's not a very social person anyway and i'm feeling all parental because i'm concerned about how shy she is and how much she like hates talking to people and she's so frickin smart but she never does homework and she WANTS to go to community college. And it pisses me off that she does so much better without even trying. And this has really digressed and gotten off topic but regardless i want her to come back to school and i want it to be last year and i want us to talk all through English class and i want us to be complete dorks together and never get any of the stuff done and i want to talk to her and see her and i want her to be back.